Just thinking (as usual)

Who knows if I am doing what i am "supposed" to be doing or even if the path i am trying to find for myself even exists in the first place? Maybe I should just be doing what I WANT to be doing. The only thing is, I am too scared. I want to be in California right now or Hawaii... or just some place else. I want to be on a magazine cover for something. I want to be famous... well maybe. The thing is, i don't really know what I want... i just know that I want something.
I was at work today and one of the older cashiers there (one of the two dude cashiers) was putting the magasines back all pretty and he came over to my cash. He was tolding a vogue magasine with a pretty chick on the cover and he said "this could be you". And I said "ya right!". and then he said, "why not, you are young". And it's true, why not, I am young. Then he proceded to tell me that I should have four boyfriends instead of none but I don't think he really means that. Who knows if he really meant the first thing but he seemed serious. It just made me wonder what I am doing with my life. I mean not that being on the cover of Vogue magasine is a lifelong accomplishment but shit, it's still something.
I wanna live it up and right now it feels like I am just living.