The Last Day of Summer

Can it be? I am liking work, liking it a lot. It's soo different from St. Hubert and yet I am almost doing the exact same job. It's nice not to be sexually harrassed though I must say. So it's kinda late and I should be in bed but oh well... I'm playing Minesweeper with Jesse. I had my victory over Laur today so he is my next victim. muhahahaa Today I modeled my Pharmaprix outfit for him. Heh it is really sexy. The pants are tapered and the shirt is like 5 sizes too big. Muahahaha. I'm a real dork now so you better watch out. School tomorrow, school always. School school school. Good thing I kinda like it. Except my 3 hour class tomorrow and then economics. Those are the two classes i dread, all the rest I really really like. Well the 3 others. Next semester I have a stage. 4 hours a week I get to go to pretend to be a social worker. More to observe I guess and be kinda like a babysitter. I wanna work with kids, that's for sure. I don't mind babysi...

All Work and No Play... I had my second shift yesterday, my first night on the cash. The lady training me said that I was doing alright and so she left to go do something in the back. I was all by myself on the first cash training!!! AHHH! I screwed up sometimes but not that much. I kinda like it actually but it is stressful at the same time. I'm sure when I get the hang of things a little better then i will be good to go. I get a 30% discount so Woo Hoo and not just for the store that I work at, for the whole chain. I bought spectro jel (13$ + tax) and toilette paper (8 rolls) and it only came to 12 dollars! lol ok a little over excited there. So I'm working tomorrow and then again on friday. Lots of work but money is good right now. I have to somehow find time to catch up on homework as well as go away for part of this weekend. yay road trip with Jess! OOOO and in other news. I'm going to see INCUBUS on Samhain!!! (aka Halloween) Yep, that's right! I'm also g...

I tell myself the same thing, every time, after it inevitably happens. Don't let yourself fall for people, at least never completely. Once you do, you are no longer the only one in control of your happiness, it begins to depend more and more on someone else. You think that no, this person is different, things will work out and I should just go with it for once. The person appears to really care for me and want to be with me. Even if you aren't absolutely sure, it takes too much to hold up your fences and walls all of the time. You think that if you do not let them in a little more, show them how much you care, then they'll get bored and they'll leave. Who would want to be with someone if they didn't think that there were real feelings underneath? So you let it show, you let them know and what happens next? They're done. You thought they'd leave if you didn't open up more, didn't show that you actually cared but no... it's somehow the reverse. You...

First Night on the Job br> Tonight I had my first shift ever at Pharmaprix. I learned how to face... boy did I learn. I faced the whole freaking store for four hours! For those of you who do not know, facing is fixing all the items up; putting things in their place, pulling older things forward, making sure barcodes match, that all the labels face the right way... yadda yadda. So yep I did that the whole night and I am pretty tired now. But, I liked it somehow. It was fun to walk around the store after and see how nice and neat everything was because of me. The people there were also really nice to me so that was groovy. :D I'm happy. I think on tuesday I learn the cash. We'll see how that goes. I'm scared to have to use the intercom thingy... ahhh! I don't wanna hear my voice blaring throughout the store.

It's funny how as soon as you start to realize how much you care about someone, they disappear. :(

Hey, did you know I go to school with your mom? I was looking around at my class the other day and realized how weird it was. All my life I've been in classes with only people my age, at the most there was maybe a two year difference between me and everybody else. And now, it's like I'm in class with a bunch of people who are already married and a bunch more who already have children. One lady even has two teenage daughters about my age. It would be so strange to become friends with one of them and then realize that I'm in class with their mom all the time. In another sense, I guess it's kool because they probably have so much more experience to share than anybody else. So today I had my first university test and it wasn't as hard as I was anticipating. I think I did already but we'll see when I get it back... if that's how it works in university. Tomorrow I'm gonna go see a movie maybe... Not sure yet. Jess is gonna stay over tho so that sh...

I got a new hair cut. I tried to put it up in the cam section but I haven't done it in a while and I kind of forget. I still see the other one but maybe it'll change. So ya, it's fun how good a nice haircut (and some highlights) can make you feel. I didn't have anything planned for tonight but I wanna go out! Hope everyone is having a good weekend. oh ya... i also did a bit of shopping today. I got 4 pairs of earring and a new winter jacket (pink and white). I'm all set.

Who am i, Who are you? So it has always been this constant quest for me to really know who I am and to understand why I am that way. Just when I think I've got it all figured out, something comes along and makes me start from the bottom again. You know if you meet someone who really inspires you or you have a friend that you just think is awesome? Well when I meet people like that, it always makes me wonder how I come across to other people. Furthermore, it makes me wonder if I give off to other people what I think I am fundamentally all about. It would probably be good to know what exactly that is before I wonder if other people get it but I have some general ideas. I know I post a lot about this getting to know oneself topic but hey, to me it is important. I always like to hear what other people think of me because I think that allows a person to get further perspective but in a way it doesn't make you concentrate on what YOU think you are all about. So who I am? Ok so I...

To the stars and the moon and to the moon and the stars. I can't think of anything to write about these days :( It isn't like there is nothing going on in my life but I dunno, I guess it is nothing that I want to write about on here. Actually, I haven't even been writing in my private journal lately and that is even more strange. Diagnosis? Maybe I'm just too preoccupied with school. Enjoy the summer before it's gone again.

3 Movies in 5 Days So I saw Wicker Park, Hero and Cellular in the last while and I'm gonna just put them in order from best to worst. 1-Hero 2-Wicker Park 3-Cellular Don't go to see Cellular unless you want to witness some very bad acting.

How could I? I went to see Hero tonight with Jesse, I thought it was a really beautiful movie. The way they used color and everything, I was super impressed. During the movie, whenever someone would cry, a tear would only fall from one eye. When the movie made me have a tear or two, it would happen the same way, strange. So as I'm sure all of you know, I always have these well I dunno if I'd call them adventures but I always have something with people I don't know on my way somewhere or home. Lately it has been changing though, instead of being followed, yelled at or harrassed, I've been finding people having uhh I guess health situations. The other day on the metro (i can't remember if I wrote about it here, if i did sorry) this guy with down syndrome or something like it got on at lionel groulx with me and was standing beside me. We got to about Guy Concordia when he suddenly just lost consciousness and fell on the floor. I have to say that I hesitated a l...

Something so silly made me so sad Awww so tonight my little man got kicked off Canadian Idol. :*( I don't know why I continue to watch these kind of shows when the people I like come so close but never make it to the end. Anyway, I'm pretty sure he'll still be a star no matter what so at least that's good. I just think it's funny how things can effect me. I mean if I had never watched the show ever then I couldn't have cared less who got voted off. And so I guess that is how it's like for everything in the whole world and maybe even everybody. I'm talking more important and serious issues now. Maybe because none of us watch all of the shit that goes on in the world or are exposed to what things are really like for other people, that no one really cares. I mean I'm sure the ones who constantly see things going on do but the majority of people probably have no clue. OR maybe we all have a clue and choose to not watch and not see because then...

My Last First Day of School So today I had my first 3 university classes. I had Intro to Social Work, Economics of the Environment and Greek Mythology. They all seemed pretty awesome. Well not so much the economics one but it is still something that I want to learn about. So ya, I had a really great day. Except of course for the lines in the bookstore but hey, not everything can be perfect. I didn't have to wait in line for an ID card or for an agenda so it all works out. Anywho, I met two new people in social work and stayed with one of them who was meeting up with a friend who actually turned out to be someone I know from highschool. Small little world we live in. I look 10 in my ID card picture by the way. Surprise surprise. So what else? McGill has lots of dudes walking around. It's funny because in all my classes (well most) and now in my social work classes they are a grand total of about 3 guys... oh well. Sniff Sniff. I think the world has been telling me to become a...