The Last Day of Summer

If i was a cat (which i might be) then that would make you a mouse and I would rip your head off and chew on it. :D hehheh

And can you feel the love tonight, the peace the evening brings... I had an almost perfect day today. It all started off with getting to watch The Lion King in anthropology class :D Then I saw Katie, Melissa, Kelly and Marco all in school which was pretty nice because I don't usually run into that many people in one day. So then I got home, studied for a little and then took a trip down memory lane. Laur called me and we decided to go for another walk today. We went to the buildings around where I used to live and saw the beginning of them being demolished. That brought back all these sentimental feelings and so we went to go see the actual apartment I used to live in. I hopped over the balcony like I always used to as a kid and she took a picture of me. At least I can always remember that. We were gonna try to get into the house but we couldn't find a way. Oh well... Then we went to go play on the slide and the spaceship that are in what used to be my backyard. I got my...

I want to fall in love tonight.... serenades rock! It was pretty nice outside today... a little windy for my hair's liking but still, pretty nice. I went for a walk with Laur and that was good. I'm on a little fitness trip at the moment and tomorrow I will be going swimming. On the walk we saw these three guys on their doorsteps and two had guitars. They started to play as we walked by and laur thought that they were just trying to show off but I was listening and the song they were singing was about us. hahaha it was pretty funny... It went like "Two girls on the sidewalk. aahh ya, a blonde in a blue jacket and the other with red streaks in her hair... oh yaa" Hahah it was awesome, stuff like that should happen more often. So tonight is all about the studying of history for my exam wednesday and about the OC. woo hoo. I wonder what the hell I am so happy about? Whoo knows, who cares? As long as I feel good... ahhhh yaaa!!! hahahhaaha

"she got out of down, on a railway new york bound" the thing is, I think I would do it too. I would do it if I knew I was going to find someone. Someone for real who won't just be into flavors of the month or who would just want me at their own convenience. I think it has been like that with every guy that I've ever been with. I wonder if anyone would beg me to turn around. sorry, too much listening to a certain song and thinking. I saw The Prince and Me tonight so of course I am thinking all about how I want some romantic thing like that to happen to me. That is the trouble with those movies... always make you want what you don't have. It was cute though. Cute and free... things that are free are the greastest. Melissa's boyfriend is soo cute. tee hee. ;)

Blow Parts of that movie hit pretty closed to home... I remember doing things like packing my suitcases and then waiting for someone who was never going to come. Remember waiting up all New Years Eve when she was supposed to come and stay with me. Crying because promises were just words to her and I still always wanted to believe them. I remember all of that stuff but at least the character in blow actually tried.. Ouch.

So all it took was a change of weather. It felt so damn good to be outside today. I was actually hot in my jacket! It seemed to make everything better and now I feel ok. Ok ok the weather and finding out that my stage is cancelled for today because St. Monica's has no school today. yay! So i should go ahead and start my homework but I just feel too happy. I think i'll play around for a while and then start later. heheh yay for spring!

at least i'm productive... 2 poems in one day, that's almost a record.

I want to cry.... scream or cry, i'm not sure which. Maybe it doesn't matter. Actually i don't think it does. who cares anyways? arg so much for my plan for making happy posts more often. i was thinking that maybe i fell into this hole, you know? I was making unhappy posts and other things because maybe it felt like there was more meaning behind them then there was in the happy posts. More emotion... more thought more feelings. . But that's stupid. I can see it now .. sort of. I can see it when I am with people that can be happy like I used to be. I used to always be happy. even with all the shit i was going through... happy little me in my happy little world. the shit i was going through was never that bad anyways to be honest. Well now my world is crashing. you know it isn't. little drama queen over here. everything is really fine and I am just blowing things out of proportion. It's ok that i feel like shit now though because tomorrow i'll prolly chan...

I just want to crawl into your arms and have you hold me.

I know, I know... it has been a while since I've posted. I had a really good time in boston! If you wanna go check laur's recount of the trip, feel free and click here . I myself am feeling much to lazy to write about it all. Last night I was super stressed out because of all the school work I have to get done. Today I am feeling better because I got two of the papers done but there is still a shitload left to do. Oh well... do what you can, right? I wanted to talk about the way people say my name. No one can really screw it up when the call me Mindy BUT when they called me Melinda, there is plenty of room for them to butcher it or at least that is how it can sound to me. I'm not sure how to describe it but some people can really make it flow. Obviously spanish people say it quite nicely but then again they could say just about anything to me and I would think it sounded lovely. Other people say it with a certain ring to it and it really sounds beautiful. They say ...

Adios Jessica will be here to pick me up soon. I just wanted to say bye and to tell everyone to have a good weekend. :) I'm still sick but hopefully will be better by tomorrow. Alright so i'll take some pics in boston and maybe put them up on my site sometime. Take care!!!

Just be on the look-out Some fuck is hacking into my msn (exciting lives we lead) and sending people viruses and saying really stupid shit. So I know the the majority of you will right away recognize that it isn't me (they do a really horrible job) but just in case I wanted to give a little warning. Hope they get what is coming to them... i love karma baby!

fuck off Arrg I'm so pissed off. I swear to God that I am not meant to leave Canada. Everytime I am about to go somewhere something happens. Usually the people cancel but if not then something else is sure to happen. Take this weekend for example... I am supposed to be going to boston BUT i am catching a cold. ALSO there was just a freaking snow storm there. Do you think I want to go be in a freaking snowstorm? I HATE WINTER! oh my god.. i am soooo grumpy right now. Being sick totally cripples my outlook on life. I know I shouldn't but i can't help it. When I get sick I turn into a big grumpy baby and that is just that way it is, ok? blah blah blah go to hell.

If your just staring at your walls So I'm leaving for Boston soon. I'm looking forward to having a good time and missing school on friday. Woo hoo. Today I found out when i have to do my IS presentation but my gym intensive is on that monday so I get to do it later, woo hoo once again. I am so so cold right now but what else is new.... cmon how am I always cold? I really can't stand this cold weather. Spring just teased me last week and then winter reared its ugly head again. Winter is garbage. Winter is only good for one day or week and that is Christmas. Ok i now I am being kinda evil and I'm sorry to the people who somehow like winter BUT I CAN"T STAND IT! ahhhhh! My throat is sore and I had better not be getting sick. Wouldn't that be great, going to boston with a big bad cold. nuh un ... not gonna happen. John Mayer concert is tonight... i know two ppl going... both on dates. Damn I wish someone woulda offered to go with me. How cute would...

Wow kool dream Oh man... i just remembered I had the koolest dream last night. I remembered it only because I was thinking that I have no green to wear today... in one part of my green I was forced to wear green Ok so I was totally an X-man in my dream. I was Rogue. but it didn't start off like that. It started off that I was like learning to be an X-men and it was freaking kool. My power was that i could like look at something, concentrate really hard and then it would come to my hand or it would go where i wanted it to go. It was really wicked. K so i was learning that and it took A LOT of concentration, like i wasn't too good yet so my energy would drain. So there was this BIG dude there and he was fighting with Rogue but like bashing the crap outta here. So i tried to go like "wood" and get this piece of wood to bash him over the head but I was too busy worrying about Rogue and I coudln't really concentrate. So I ran though (oh ya I was in st. monica...

The time that passes us by. So I have time management issues. arg. Sarah came over last night and we at least got our gym homework finished. Gym homework... one of the most pointless things I know. Right now I really feel like going swimming. Water feels so nice and ya you get a really good feeling after swimming or I do anyways. My little cousin is still over here and I can't really do my homework... It isn't like I want to do it anyways. I am so sick of essays. Tonight I am supposed to go out and then again tomorrow but man... how am I going to do everything else. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Boston is coming up next weeked; I'm really excited about it. If it gets cancelled I am going to be pretty sad. :( So i'll keep my fingers crossed. McKibbons tonight... I do want to go and see craig but at the same time I would rather go out and do something today in the nice weather instead of waiting till tonight. Well tomorrow it might be just as nice and i could go...

Six Generations of Children Watched as their Mothers Burned at the Stake So how is that for powerful title? Not only powerful but true... For the past couple of years, let's just say that Christianity has not been one of my favorite religions and what I saw today just reinforced my views. I am so so unbelieveably upset that I was Catholic, how anyone could be after learning how they converted people and came to their power, is really beyond me. Ya, you can say it is in the past but it doesn't change what happened. I am not saying all christians are bad, far from it... but what people did in the name of God is disgusting. Now I don't think i am ignorant but I had no idea that something went on that could easily be referred to as a women's holacaust. The fact that no one speaks about it, or at least not nearly as much as the jewish Holacaust is saying something. Between the 15th and 17th century, in 300 years, about 9 million women were persecuted and put to death...

ballz I had this whole big post prepared in my mind and I was all heated and passionate about the topic because it is pretty close to home for some reason (don't ask) but I had too much of a good night to get into it right now. maybe I will try soon as i do my homework and the emotions will come back to me but for now I will talk about tonight. So first of all I got my acceptance letter to McGill so yay! But, it isn't for my first choice it is for my second. I'm still waiting for the letter to hear about whether I get my first choice or not. I got into Faculty of Arts so with that I can either go into psychology or anthropology or any other social science, the two i mentioned interest me most though. So my parents were super happy for me and decided to have a dinner for me instead of going to see the movie they had planned on. Very sweet. So my great grandmother came downstairs and she started to cry because she was so happy. I never know what to do or say in those si...

You are the chinese element of Fire. People who are under the element of fire are considerate, sensitive and communicative. Fire, you are a conjuror, and you hate boredom, butterfly emoitions and you also crave excitement. The color of fire is red and your symbol is the pheonix. Summer is the season in which fire shines and it's months are April/May. Your weather condition is heat. Fire is the direction south, and your day is Tuesday, while your planet is Mars. Animals under your element are usually winged. People under you are the Hans. Your sense is taste, whereas your taste is bitter, your sound is laughing and your virtue is propriety. Your organ is the heart. You were created by Wood and you control Metal. Which of the 5 Chinese Elements Are You? brought to you by Quizilla

meh So i realized that pastel colors suit me best with my hair and all but I still like dressing in dark colors. I painted my nails and they are all sparkley yay. I was supposed to be tutoring today at 4 but I was asked if I could go at 4:30 instead so I guess now I will only be home around 6:45 or 7. I'm not sure if I am going to some orchestra with laur and michelle tonight or not. We'll see. If not american idol is always on and I do have a shitload of homework that I could do. OMG i did it again. every freaking time I paint my nails and they are all perfect, I have to screw one of them up. EVERY SINGLE TIME! arrrg. oh well it is not super noticeable. This is one of my meaningless posts. I am bored. And I'm not bored because of a lack of things to do I am just bored because I am not making myself do anything. How retarded is that? Do you know that the last day of summer never felt so cold?

Happy National Women's Day Pffft a whole day dedicated to women and nothing even happened. Other than my 8 o'clock class being cancelled and me having a fit because I could have slept even more, nothing much happened. I did get to talk to Adam though which is always fun. Umm what else? Tomorrow I have an anthropology test so hopefully that will go well for me... I feel like going out but I do have to study and there isn't anywhere particular that I would like to go. Tomorrow night Laur wants me to go see an orchestra but I am not sure about that. It would be an interesting experience but I have to tutor till 6 and blah blah. :( Boo, tonight I feel so unproductive.... I just don't feel like doing anything ... especially gym homework that I have to get done.

Every single time I got a Valentine's day card yesterday from my mom of course. It was in french for a husband or wife but she never really cared what language the cards were in. She just called me now and every time it makes me feel so sick inside. I actually talked to her a little this time. She wanted her aunt's postal code back in P.E.I. and she asked me how school was going. She said "you're going ot be a psychologist eh?". She always knows. I remember that from as a kid do, I know that if I have any psychic ability it does come from her. One time we were just playing with dice and I told her to call about the number as I threw it in the air and she got it right like 5 times or more in a row. That kinda freaked me out as a kid. I used to look up to her, can you believe it? I don't even want to write this here. It is just convinient... maybe i'm gonna post it but not publish. then again maybe somehow it makes ppl feel better to read about my life a...

The Midas Touch So yesterday I spent the day at Kelly's and before we went out to foufs, we decided to dye my hair. My hair is blond naturally but I thought it would be kool to make it a little lighter or just different... Anyway we were gonna take some of the gold out and just make it lighter but somehow the whole thing turned gold so now basically my whole hair is one big thing of cold. Oh well... i never had a problem with gold. We got to foufs a little later and it was a pretty fun night. We were late because we ordered food and it took 2 freaking hours for it to come, we almost told the guy forget it but we were starving. It was still good anyways. yum. Ok ya sorry back to the story. Went to foufs and it was fun. Saw lots of people and met Adam's friend Nick. He was pretty kool and he likes this stuff that he is trying to pass off as meat but we all know it is really chesse. ;) I did wanna meet adam but maybe another time. I can understand if we never meet each ot...

I really don't have the patience to deal with ppl Here is the information to the people who are supposed to be coming. Come or don't come... I just don't wanna deal or worry about it. We are meeting at atwater... the pepsi forum second floor infront of future shop... If that is too far for you or too much trouble wait in the metro or get to the place on your own. (if you are some random person I don't know and didn't talk to about this... don't show up) hahah just taking precautions. Right so at around 9 meet there because Kevin finishes work then and I'm sure not everyone wants to walk into the place alone. I just don't feel like chasing after ppl and asking if they are coming. I'm going to have a good time either way and it is up to you if you want to have one or not. That's it. * Call my cell if you need or want to talk about anything else. See ya.

And she cracks the code So just in case anyone was curious... I figured out what the numbers meant. All by myself. hehehe Who like Tampa Bay Lightning anyways? It is all about where Paul Kariya and Hejduk are at! hehehe I'm just kidding... well no I'm not but you know what I mean. Anywho I wonder what my "reward" will be for figuring out. hehehe Maybe I'll find that out tomorrow night. heh it is gonna be a party. Lots of people are going.

Dammit I thought that I coulda made a damn good porn star. :( Oh well. Ack why can I smell fire?!? Ok... my granny just lit a candle... I was like looking for a fire. So ya did you guys ever hear of something called a "sex swing" so you can be like suspended from the ceiling or something. Lol Maybe that'll be the new fad soon and everyone will be like "damn I want a sex swing". I would want one at least LOL swings are the best. ;) Romantic movie! You probably won't star in a porno anytime soon. You seem to be really into the whole "love" thing...romantic sex with perfumed sheets and candles all over the place. You're probably a hopeless romantic. You value sex and respect your partner too much to do anything like porn. AWWWWWW! What kind of porno would you star in? brought to you by Quizilla *Well well well, the old fashioned 17th century vampire, one of my faves. You look for the good things in life, you posses a lot of clas...

The Number Mystery Right so I just needed a place to keep all these "clues" together but if anyone can figure out what is going on just lemme know. (37-17-7-5) ^Those are the numbers. >these are the clues: -logically there are 2 ways you could find out (outside sources or extensive research) -The first number changes... apparently a huge hint. -Not in the person's control but supposedly makes them happy -THey are changing one at a time - He said, "the first row for some reason makes me happy" Ok so that is all i've got for now. I'm too tired to think atm... my brain hurts. I'm not sure my test went that well this morning but I didn't fail.

Not a bad start to my day My english essay went really well this morning, especially considering I prepared for it at like 1:40 am last night. :) It all came pretty easy somehow. I was stressing because I have a lot to study for my abnormal psych exam tomorrow and I am going to see a movie tonight but then my last class was cancelled and now I get more time. Woo hoo. I've been waiting to see Mystic River for a while now... hope it is going to be good and not make me cry or at least not cry too much. The song by Lifehouse called Everything is really really good, thanks for showing it to me Adam. So I do realize that I write a lot a lot of personal stuff about my site on line. It is just that I figure no one really goes to it except the people who know me anyways but lately that has really been proved wrong. People I don't even know start chatting with me and they know half my life story already. For some people that doesn't bother me at all but for others it is a ...

It is funny how talking to someone I have never met in person before can make me so happy. I don't know what is going on. lol... it is really really bizarre. and that fact that so many things connect between us is just even stranger but in a good way. The day started off really really badly but now somehow things feel better. Well except for the fact that I haven't done homework for like 5 days... whoopsie.. i just can't make myself do it. Tomorrow I will apply myself though. no msn or anita blake until I finish my psych. assignment. Right so I am listening to Edwin McCain... I could not ask for more. It is such a nice song. I can't wait to get into a good relationship one day.

[edit] Laur made me a new layout! [/edit] My life is one little soap opera. It is disgusting. I mean i wanted things to get interesting but not stupid. I wonder how many people would be addicted if my life were playing on tv. Something new is always coming up but it is rarely something good. I was so frustrated last night and some things just made it super worse. God... it is as if I skipped a stage in highschool and I am having to return to relive it. Besides all of that whichever little fucker hacked into my msn and tried to send JF and i dunno who else a virus.... I hope you die. That is all from me for now. But at least today is really nice out and that has provided me with about the only happiness. * Yay for JF. muhahahaha