The Last Day of Summer

Random Thoughts Two posts in the same day, enjoy. I miss Jay... I think about him a lot nowadays, how is he doing, is he happy, does he miss me? I called him a while back and it was like he was a completely different person. That is one relationship that I wish could go back to being the way it used to. I want a job where I can help people. I don't care so much about what it is as long as I can contribute in some way. A child psychologist, a lawyer, a researcher or a teacher. I don't know how to choose which field to go into but I know that I want my job to be meaningful. Any suggestions? People advise others, I've been advised the same thing over and over, that you shouldn't get into a job that you are going to take home with you or that you are going to let get to you. I don't believe that. Maybe if we all cared a little more, if things actually got to all of us then the world wouldn't be what it is today. Perhaps there wouldn't be millions o...

Holiday Scmoliday This upcoming monday is a Jewish holiday. My first two classes are cancelled because I have Jewish teachers and so I only start school at 1. Normally this would be wonderful but last class our french teacher announced we were starting orals on monday. I dispise french orals. She named all the people who had to go monday and I was so glad I was not on the list. Then this one punk who i strongly doubt is even Jewish claimed to be and said that because he was, he couldn't possibly do his oral on that day. Bullshit! You don't see me giving excuses like "oh it is Samhain so I can't do anything work at all today tra la la". Anywho I guess the real reason this upset me so much was because guess who got booted up to doing their oral on monday? ME , that's right so I'm stuck. I don't even know what she wants for the stupid oral but I am going monday. What an asshole! You're the loving smile,the one that is entirely devoted to others,...

Isabel Do you ever just get this really shitty feeling and not know why it's there? Maybe that is how Isabel is feeling. Last night when I was walking with Melissa and Sarah along St. Catherine, this guy grabbed my wrist and asked all these weird questions. He first asked the standard "how are you" and then went on talking about how he saw me in Toronto last weekend. I told him that I wasn't in Toronto last weekend and he didn't take me serious I guess. He asked me my name and when I said Melinda he said "no, aren't you Isabel?". Isabel? Oh yes sir, that's right. How stupid of me to have forgotten my own goddamn name... I got so drunk last weekend that I didn't even know what fucking province I was in. That is right... I'm glad you set me straight. You couldn't even believe half the people I met. That wasn't so bad though, I had my friends with me thankfully. Not nearly as bad as the time the stinky old asian man with missing...

Freaky-ish I was writing an e-mail to someone today and after it was sent an add popped up in hotmail. I went to check it out and it is like the strangest thing ever. It talks to you and actually answers questions and stuff. So the address is http://www/dugg.ca so go there if you are curious. If you can figure out the magic word or whatever please let me know. hahaha this thing is really weird. Oh yeah and if it is some bad thing I am not taking any responsibility for what happens. I'm not forcing you to check out this site, I am just mentioning it because I think it is funny/strange and because it says my name. If you do go and check it out, lemme know if anything interesting happens.

The Way You Make me Feel So the movie turned out to be pretty good last night. :) Just proves that I shouldn't listen to what the majority of people tell me. I need to find someone who has the highest average of liking and disliking the same movies as I do and then consult only that person. I didn't know that Underworld was in part a love story, guess I missed that in the previews. Anyway although it wasn't your typical vampire movie, I did really enjoy it. The lead female actress was pretty good and had some amazing eyes happening. I was surprised to find out that Ben from Felicity was in the movie. hahaha Go Ben! So I'm thinking I should go get tested for anemia or whatever but if they then tell me that I also have cancer or that I need my leg amputated, boy will I ever be pissed... Hospitals are scary. My granny was moved into a conveslescent home yesterday so we'll see what the is like tonight when I go visit. An old friend of mine from elementary scho...

Always at the Back of my Mind I saw my mother today on my way home, luckily enough it was not up close. I would say that she looked a little better than your average drug addict. She had some nice bell bottom pants on and a boston bruins shirt. I wanted to study her, to see everything going on in her life but I had to hide instead. I know what she is like and it is most probably same old same old going on. I don't think that I could risk it. Everytime I hear people talking about their parents or, even worse, teachers giving us assignments where we have to interview our mothers or at least our fathers, it sort of depresses me. I got this psychology assignment, a parent interview, all about what the birth was like and how well the child developped and learned. And, the instructions were that it is most interesting and works best with your own mother but guess what? I don't really have that option so that paper can just screw off. I'll interview my granny when she gets ...

Who Wants to be Lonely? I don't anymore.

Too Real I wasn't going to post at all today but then I realized that it was only fitting. If one is going to have a name like "last day of summer" then one should most definetely post on the veritable Last day of summer. When summer comes to an end it is so terribly sad for me. Luckily enough I am not feeling anything tonight. I am just so tired. I am feeling more on the good side than the bad though. Last night I went to a party in Point-Claire. Andrew's party and I had a fairly good time, it was pretty fun. It was good to catch up with certain people. I did however manage to confuse myself like I always do in the love side of my life. Anyways, I'm sure that'll figure itself out, maybe it was nothing. My granny is doing much better now. She was actually sitting up in a chair today. I didn't go see her today because I was sleeping when my aunt went but I will for sure go and see her tomorrow. I'm so relieved compared to what I was feeling...

So Much For Being a Vampire I went to visit my granny in the hospital, it was awful at the beginning. There were tubes all over the place: her nose, her arms and her hip. She told me that the operation was awful and showed me the bruises all over her veins from the doctors not being able to get them properly. The doctors ended up having to put her to sleep (which she did not want) and take the blood from her neck. I saw the bruises there and then she showed me the tank of blood at her side. I had to sit down and it was then that I realized my future life as a vampire was over before it started. I felt so sick... I needed to walk away and sit down. I wanted to cry but I didn't want anyone else to see my cry. My aunt and uncle were there with me. They went to get coffee for my granny and then she held my hand and was fighting to keep her eyes open. I felt the tears building but I turned and looked at the window. She has a beautiful view from there. St. Joseph's is magnificent...

Feels Like Friday Only having one class in day really changes how I feel. I don't feel stressed or anything at all just pretty good. I took a quiz and I think that it got at least part of me right, let's see if it works. You represent... hope. You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't mind being alone at times. You have goals, and know what you want in life... even if they are a little far fetched. What feeling do you represent? brought to you by Quizilla Hope is one of the most important things in life, according to myself. Last night I really wanted to go for a walk alone but since it was 11:30 I couldn't because it isn't too safe around it. I decided in the end to sit on my balcony for a while and listen to music. It was nice... the weather has been amazing. It would be nice to have someone to share that with and someone who could understand. I wanted to sleep outside last night. My gran...

Infatuation Alright well something really odd is going on with my comments (whispers), none of them seem to be showing for some reason. Oh well... hopefully it will correct itself. I cannot make a long post tonight because the OC is coming on very soon and I completely absorb myself into that show. I love it so much. Man if only I could meet a guy like Ryan or Seth's character. oh ya hahah that brings me to the question I wanted to ask people. I'm already sure that Katie will agree with me here. Does anyone notice that when you find a person or many people really attractive, really intriguing and whatever else, he or they always seem to have girlfriends or boyfriends??? Oh man it is like the reoccuring theme in life I suppose. Anyway... nothing really serious I want to express or talk about so I will cut it here. Sorry... one more thing I just noticed. What the hell happened to the image on my site? Brandon just disappeared :*(

Thank-you People actually wrote to me after I told them my site was back up. Thanks for the comments, Laur, Sarah, Melissa and Katers. ;) Thank-you Kevin for taking the time to write me an e-mail, that was really sweet. I won't post it up unless you want me to. ;) Never know when it will come in handy to have a list of eager brides at your disposal. And last but not least... I got an e-mail today. It was from my "secret admirer" and it had a poem in it. Well all it was was a poem and I'm not gonna post it because it is special and I don't know if it would be right to. I thought that guy had moved on along time ago. Anyway I'm really scared to hurt him but the poem made me feel pretty special and so that is why I wanted to metion it. So thank-you everyone for showing that you care. hehe Yay!

A New Beginning Life seems to be different for me now so I figured why not go with the whole new beginnings theory. Not that I need to start over due to anything bad that previously happened, I just would like to think of my life now as a new and hopefully good time. I missed having this site quite a bit once I got back from camp. Whenever I had an interesting thought, I longed for a place to be able to write it. My journal wasn't enough anymore because I like to hear other people's takes on my thoughts. So here I am back again. A big thank-you to Laur who got this site up and running for me again. I still don't know how to make layouts and all the coding really gets on my nerves. Last day of summer seemed like a good site name to me. "The Last day of Summer" is a song I like by The Cure and Brandon there is a member of one of my favorite bands; Incubus. Anywho to me Last day of summer means a mixture of things. It is in part that feeling that you get w...

testing Mindy your site is ready.. you can only have one post showing at the moment though.. I dunno why, I'll try and fix it later.. till then, here you go. Welcome back! Great new name :)