The Last Day of Summer

I am having a wonderful summer so far! :) I'm happy. Things seem to be falling in to place. Now just to hear about my stage. I love my baby :) I have a feeling for some reason that my stage will be at Willingdon, but who knows. Actually, almost every other person in my program knows where they are being placed, I don't know what happened in my case but they told me they are waiting for confirmation or something and they will let me know by the week of August 17th.. my stage starts Aug. 24th... oooouff! I'm kinda sad I didn't get the David Dillon Project, quite sad actually. But I'll still make the most of my experience.

So far this summer is pretty fun. I went for a boat ride at the old port the other day. Besides that, I've been to the beach and yesterday we drove to tremblant. Carlos' family is renting a cottage there from July 19-26, I'm sooooo excited!! :D There's the lake, a beach, tremblant village, waterslides close by, and other stuff I'm sure we'll discover. Man, summer is really the best! Carlos smells like poo poo!

wow well i am really missing camp but Carlos' mom might be making it a whole lot better. She was talking to me tonight about renting a cottage for two weeks. Gawd, that'd be awesome! Sitting on the beach outside everyday, swimming, star-gazing. I feel like it would be soooo good for my soul. It would be good for my soul. Arbely would be there too. Maybe we could do some yoga outside or underneath the stars, wow wow wow. I do wish that I had money to throw in. I'm going to find out about summer school tomorrow I guess. In a way I want it to make some cash and in a way no because without it I could stay at the cottage for those two weeks and not have a care in the world. Oh god I miss that. I think that was one of the most amazing things about camp. For a whole summer you could just go and leave all ur worries behind. You'd be working, but that's barely work when you are on a lake everyday! Shit man, I can't explain it. That place was just great. It always felt li...

Life is so crazy. I like it though.

I went to see the proposal tonight with SARAH and her sister. It was pretty funny actually. I didn't really wanna see it from the beginning but I'm glad I did. Problem is I cried like off and on throughout the second half of the movie. Especially at the dress scene. It made me realize how badly I wanted that. To get married, to have someone to love and to love me, to be accepted into and loved by another family... And I thought I was close this time. I really put my hopes into it. I think even more than I realized. Until I saw the movie.... I cried and cried. and there was even a grandma and a mom in the movie that reminded me of my family and Carlos' mom I guess a bit and I just cried more and more. I wanted it man. I really did. And now I'm crying some more. But what can I say? We weren't making it work. I wasn't happy with the way things were. I wanted it to work, I really did. But I couldn't stay in a relationship like that. I can't. I almost went ...