I guess by not making a choice at all, I am making one. But I don't want to make the choice so I'm not going to. And that's that. Whatever comes will come. I saw the Curious Case of Benjamin Button the other day. I liked it. I think Brad Pitt is really good in roles like that, just like ummm the one I always forget the name of... Meet Joe Black. yeah I had to ask Carlos.. Roles that require someone of sweet character and innocence. It's weird that I don't really care for Bradd Pitt in real life, but in those two roles I really do. I'm also reading a book titled Brida right now by Paulo Coelho. I've already read The Witch of Portobello and I liked it. This one I think I may like even more. It's about a young girl on the path to learn the Old Traditions of the Sun and of the Moon. She learns from a magus and from a lady named Wicca. hehe I want to find my own teachers. I want to go on a pilgrimage. I've wanted that for so long now. I want to go somewh...
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I got a 96.55% on my science exam! fuck yeah. I mean it's not rocket science, but still, I did really well. And I got over a 90 in my policy class too and I'm happy with that because history and law stuff is really NOT my thing. I just wanna get my math mark and see how I did in geography. I fucked up on one assignment and so I hope I did really well on my final. I'm not sure why I care so much but I think it's because school is the only area where I've really felt in control and like I could excel. "It's coming on Christmas, They're cutting down trees. They're putting up reindeer And singing songs of joy and peace, Oh, I wish I had a river I could skate away on."
It Shines, It Spins, It Glows (almost visibly) I have waited my whole life to see That one look on your face If I knew that someday, Someone so beautiful Would be looking at me that way I would never have been afraid of anything Not of growing up Not of losing my way Not of getting my heart broken All of it would have been so trivial Because I would have known that So much better was coming my way If I could capture that look, Put it into a bottle with a stopper It would be my most prized possession I would wear it around my neck, I would keep it in my pocket I would weep tears of joy before it But I do not have to Because I have you Every night, I get to see your face I get to see those eyes I get to see that look And I am so thankful I am so humbled I am so full of everything That I have ever wanted And all I want now Is to be everything that you need
I'm doing some math right now at work. I started studying for geography but got bored too fast. I'm replacing someone today and I might replace another girl tomorrow. I can't complain though because the money is needed. I went to the old place and got my christmas tree out of the locker. Sarah and I put the tree up and it's lovely. For some reason though, I'm not in the holiday spirit yet. I'm still waiting to be happy. Why aren't I happy already? It must be partly my own fault. I want my place to feel like a home and I want to feel the Christmas spirit. I think that I will wait a little longer (while actively trying to be happy) and if that does not work out then I will make whatever changes I believe are necessary. I had a really bad dream last night. I felt what it was like to truly have your freedom taken away from you. It's a very BAD feeling. Every right we have we do have to hold on to and fight for.