The Last Day of Summer

Those sad, helpless eyes I was driving with Jess and her mom the other day and we saw that a dog was hit by a car. We stopped, turned and went to see if it was alive. We got there, got out of the car, saw that it was alive. Jess' mom was trying to get the cars to stop, a van didn't stop. It ran over the dog again. I went to see it, it was still alive. Another car stopped, a guy picked up the dog so we could take it to the vet. I was sitting in the back so I held it on my lap. I was talking to it and trying to make sure it kept breathing and conscious and stuff. Not that I really knew what I should do but I just kept petting and talking to it. The guy said "at least if it dies, it'll have someone that cared for it during it's last hours". That made me think of like an angel of death... Anyways, it had this fucking cute bandana around it's neck with pumpkins... So we are driving and it's breathing and it's eyes are open. We are still driving, seem...

Watching a Slow Death You�re lost in a world A world that is on the outside Beyond the limits of my knowledge Some place where I cannot go Where I cannot rescue you from Only you can set yourself free Your self-constructed prison Is what keeps us apart The worth of the next high Is far more than I ever imagined Can you not see past it? Of course not, stupid question It is too bad that you are oblivious To everything I would have given up to have you I CAN�T UNDERSTAND Your lifestyle makes no sense Is it just substance abuse or A way to run away You are killing yourself slowly And do not think that it is not killing me

Discovering the meaning of "shop till ya drop" Last night I went shopping with jess at fairview and I spent over $200! Bad me, yes I know but... I got really nice stuff Woo hoo. Jeans, skirts, shirts and like and over shirt ohhh la la Anyways, after shopping I got home at 9 something and went right to bed. hahah this morning I woke up and decided not to go to class because I was tired and really didn't feel like it. I called Jess just now because we are supposed to hang out again today and she didn't go to class either. In the words of Jesse we are some "lazy cats" lol , it's true! Sooo I'm gonna learn how to drive today and actually go out onto the street. heheh people better watch out! ;)

I knew it would make me cry I went to see Ladder 49 tonight and man, my eyes are burning. I was really crying, can't remember the last movie that made me shed more than a tear or two. Bah! I hate crying in movies, i feel like such a big loser. But it was sad ok so leave me alone! Hmm well maybe I'll go take a bath now and relax a little before I worry about my homework.

Another blast from the passed Sooo I forgot to mention how I saw Laea the other day. I FINALLY got to see her like after 4 or 5 years. I also saw her baby girl, Imia (not sure if that is the right spelling) but ya SOOOO CUTTTEEE!!!!! The girl is 6 months and she also has a son who is 2 years old. She is actually moving like right next to me soon, whenever they finish renovating the old appartments where I used to live. How awesome is that? She might actually move into my old one. ooo I'm so excited. I told her she has to come over with her two kids. heheh I'm gonna get to play with them and stuff... lil kids are the best! Ya it's gonna be very kool because they are renovating all the appartments and making them into affordable house and housing for single parents. YAY! there are finally gonna be some people my age and younger around. Not just old people everwhere which i think is really groovy. Anywho I also saw this dude today from St. Huberts, he was my fav guy there...

Fiew, I passed Although I had to wait about 5 hours from the time I got there till the time I left, I passed and have my learners permit. I get it in the mail in about 10 days.. Yipppeeee! Now Jess is gonna really have to teach me to drive. It'll be fun! Anyways Carlos actually went with me to the place because I didn't really know where it was so that was super nice of him :D GO him! Hmm work called me to go in tonight because someone called in sick but I said no because I have to work on my essay. If I didn't though I would have went in. Now that I know mostly what to do with everything, I enjoy it a lot more. Plus money is always good. Anywho, I'm gonna go eat some food since i'm starving (yay my granny's subs) and then I'll work on that essay. I might see Carlos later tonight, I'm not sure.

Well mostly all I did this weekend was work.... oh ya and get an MRI so surprisingly enough, I don't have much to write about. I went to laur's house for like 3 hours today and watched a movie; Mr. Deeds. God, I want to be in love. Those little sappy movies ( I LOVE Adam Sandler) make me realize how much I am missing. Ironically enough, I watched the movie with laur and her boyfriend so ya... lil loner Mindy sat at the bottom of the bed alone. One day that'll change though... lol you'll all see. I'll finally develop an amazing taste in men and one will just fall into my lap. YA and then I'll wake up... i know i know. But for real... can't I just have an awesome boyfriend who I love and who loves me back and ... ok i'll stop now.

The MRI So I finally got the MRI for my knee. It was a little scary. I had to get an IV!!! I didn't feel too good about that... i actually thought I was gonna faint. I don't know when that started... When i was little I used to have to go to the hospital a lot and get blood tests A LOT and I never really LIKED it but I never felt like I was gonna faint... well except for the time they took like 6 or more viles but that doesn't count. Ok so ya they put the IV in like half an hour before I went into the machine. I had to take off all my jewlery because they said it would burn if I went in there with it and i had to wear a hospital gown also cuz if you wear your bra in there that will burn also apparently. Weird. So you get into the machine, all your body except your head and it started to make all these crazy noises. It makes the same noise for 5 minutes and then a different kind of strange noise for the next 5 minutes. Finally for the last 5 the lady came and stuck the ...

Miss Michy So this is for anyone who went to marymount and was in my class. Today at work I saw Miss Michy (we called her that instead of Michelle) and she says hi to everyone. We had this be long convo (well for a cash line it was long) and she was blown away that I'm in university now and that it was so long ago that I was in highschool. She is a teacher at sacred heart now. She is sooo cute. hehe she asked me all about my life and stuff and ya it was awesome. She was like the best student teacher ever! We did Hamlet with her I think. lol anywho ya she wanted me to tell everyone that she says hello. So I just wanna thank Annie for coming to visit me at work today, you're the best! muhahah I hope you have an awesome birthday!!! We must go parfume shopping soon. Ok well i'm off to bed because all I do is school, homework and real work so i'm freaking tired. I miss someone MRI tomorrow... hope everything goes well.

Mitten and Flipflops Right... so what the hell is the point in wearing mittens if you are going to wear FLIP FLOPS. I mean sure... keep your fingers all snug and warm and let your toes freeze, makes perfect sense. You people can start wearing boots like 2 months too early yet when it actually gets cold, you chose to wear flippers. OOOOKAAAY!! So i am in a pretty bitchy mood. Well not a pretty one actually... This one lady at work pissed me off and I didn't even work today I went in to buy some stuff... grrr I'm supposed to get a 30% discount and now that they made the system all fancy dancy my stupid optimum card doesn't work. The lady tells me to come back and buy it tomorrow after work WELL HELLO... I kind of need these tampons now. THANKS! (I should have warned the guys to avert they're eyes or put some sports on hahah well too bad) TAMPONS TAMPONS TAMPONS. can you handle it? Hahaha ok sorry. Don't mind me... Anyways... I have tons of homework to do bu...

Once upon a time I had a life Yes, that's right, i did. I didn't always have to either go to school, do schoolwork or go to work. I used to be able to chillax and watch tv or go out on weeknights and especially weekends. Hmmm whatever happened to that? Hopefully once midterms are over and done with, I will regain whatever life I used to have or maybe an even better one.

The Balance So yesterday I must have been feeling shitty because today was going to be wonderful. This morning I found out that I was approved for a loan/bursary and that the bursary part will be enough to cover my tuition. That made me so happy because I was afraid that I was going to have to spend everything I am making working on school and wouldn't have any money left for anything else, such as christmas presents for family, traveling and some shopping for myeslf. Anywho yay! Further more I got my medical anthropology essay written today and I will continue to study for my greek myth exam later tonight. I had dinner with my family at my great grandmother's which was also super nice, we had chalet BBQ. The whole thing was arranged though so they could give me my birthday present early. They said they had to give it to me now and that I would see why when I opened it. So i was all curious and opened it and found a brand new cell phone waiting for me. It is super nice, in...

It must be me (after all... i'm bred for mating) I don't know what it is about me, if I wear a "feel free to violate me" sign on my back or something without ever realizing it's there but I have to find a way to get it off. Nothing even super bad happened tonight, i can just see it progressing. I don't want it to get to the point that it did at st. hubert's and have my manager trying to have sex with me in the room in the back. My manager at pharmaprix is being overly friendly. At first I wasn' t sure if he was just one of those touchy people because as I was complaining to someone about the way he is they asked me if I would find so much if he was tall, dark and handsome and then I thought I should consider it and not be so aggravated. But I've considered it and if I don't want someone touching me, then they shouldn't be touching me, that's it that's all. So ya this dude always puts his hand on my waist to move me over or touche...

Don't bring this to an end I've been having a really wonderful day and I would like for it to continue like this. Lately I've been happy. I mean I've been stressed out also because of school and work but overall I think i've been happy. I want to come to a conclusion about what is making me this way or what number of things are. I'm hesitant at the same time to write about being happy because I know it could all go away by tomorrow or any minute. My moods usually fluctuate a lot, day to day, but ya overall I think i've been pretty happy. Anywho, why am I happy today? Well... I got my assignment handout for medical anthropology and I was really worried about it because I have two other essays to write and a test to study for and so I had an hour and a half break today, where I went over it in the library. It isn't bad at all, I feel pretty capable of being able to answer it and do well. I already started brain storming my ideas and if I concentrate pr...

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More of a post to remind me of what I want to write in the future OK so the other nite I was with Jess and I was totally explaining all my beliefs about the world to her and it actually kinda made sense. Although I'm sure I won't be able to repeat it in the same way. I just want to remind myself that I should make a whole other section on the beliefs I have developed thus far and that way I could keep adding and refining them, it's nice to have it written down somewhere. Anyways, it's basically about this essense that everything comes from and how people get different parts of this essence, as do all living things, and when death occurs, we return to that essence. Also how people get all different parts and this explains differences in personality and why some people match better together than others because they're essences come from about the same part and ya ok too confusion to try to sum up , I have to go on a big rant. So be prepared, that is coming soon. ...

"You don't know what it's like to watch someone so beautiful be ruined by a drug". (Some dude from CSI Miami talking about his sister) But unfortunetely I know all too well.

Mon dieu So I worked today for 9 hours and at times I wanted to beg someone to shoot me. It was pretty miserable, especially considering I'm new, there were HUGE sales today, supposed to be 3 cahsiers but were only 2 and well I could go on and on. Anyways it was hell BUT I had a moment. All of a sudden I went from being extremely stressed and nervous to like "who the fuck cares". After that happened, everything just went better. If I screwed up I just called the head cashier dude to fix it because I was thinking... you know what, i'm new and therefore entitled to screw up if you are gonna put me on a crazy shift like this. THings were sold out and people were yelling and me and like I was like "well sorry. bye" Ya I don't need to take that crap, I didn't organize the stupid sale or store. So yep, not my problem. I guess this could sound bitchy but I used to be so stressed I would almost be shaking and then I just had an epiphany. i'm sure I an...

I really really want to go to Greece now. After my greek mythology class today, it's a must. I want to go to see the temple type thing at Delphi. I just got to see a picture of it today and it looked amazing. Wow, I can't wait to travel. I'm looking forward to everything so much. Now, if I can just get through all the midterms I have coming at me now, I should be fine. I hate all these papers and things worth such a big chunk of my great. I can't believe that in some classes only two assignments determine your whole grade. Like for one of my social work classes, I have a 30% paper and an oral presentation worth 50% of my mark. 50%!!!! (the other 20 % are participation marks... those I must say are pretty sweet) What else? oh on wednesday nights there is this show that plays on past lives where they hypnotize people and then hear what they have to say and then do research on it to see if the person that the person under hypnoses talks about could have really existed. I...

Happy I had a really good weekend. Made some money, had friends over and got to talk to Jesse. :D I also, surprisingly, got some homework done in there so I'm good to go. I'm skipping my first class today but it is just a conference and they don't take attendence. I have a little time to waste before going to school and so I'll prolly read my medical anthropology stuff. I work this week on tuesday, thursday and saturday. Saturday I'm doing a 9 hour shift... I don't know how I'll be able to handle that. 9 hours is a freaking long time to spend in Pharmaprix. Laur is going to apply for a job also so that would be fun if she got it. They are looking for more cashiers so we'll see, as long as she hurrys up. So Jess and I have been planning to go on a trip to Europe for a while now and we think that it might actually happen. We are gonna try to go with 4 people for this summer. How amazing woudl that be? I really want to travel and I want to do it wh...