Don't bring this to an end
I've been having a really wonderful day and I would like for it to continue like this. Lately I've been happy. I mean I've been stressed out also because of school and work but overall I think i've been happy. I want to come to a conclusion about what is making me this way or what number of things are. I'm hesitant at the same time to write about being happy because I know it could all go away by tomorrow or any minute. My moods usually fluctuate a lot, day to day, but ya overall I think i've been pretty happy.
Anywho, why am I happy today? Well... I got my assignment handout for medical anthropology and I was really worried about it because I have two other essays to write and a test to study for and so I had an hour and a half break today, where I went over it in the library. It isn't bad at all, I feel pretty capable of being able to answer it and do well. I already started brain storming my ideas and if I concentrate properly I should be able to get it done in like two hours. So ya I also worked on my other essay last night and I'm almost half done that one. It's due next friday and the anthro one is due on tuesday. My greek myth test is monday so it's really all going to come down to how I can manage my time.
So I also had my 5th medical anthro. conference today and that also went really well. I found I had all these things to say for once and even though I am shy, I like how I still voice my thoughts and opinions. I used to always want to try and change the way I am but I think I've found a better way to just be myself. There's nothing wrong with being a little reserved in some situations and i don't know why I've always felt that there was. As long as I'm not holding myself back in situations, I think I'm ok. So ya anyways, we had our discussions and as I was saying things that this guy kept agreeing with me on and then he would talk and mention how what i said makes a lot of sense. It was nice. Then there was this other guy, his name is George but that doesn't really matter, and today was the first day I noticed him. It's been the 5th time I've been in the room with all those people (like 15) , and even though maybe he wasn't there every single time, I'm surprised I still never noticed him. Anyways he is really beautiful. It's funny because well I don't know, I usually notice good looking people and for some reason a lot of the time I make judgements that they are probably assholes. But with this guy today, it was like he was just beautiful and I kind of just wanted to be touched by the beauty. Heh this sounds rediculous I guess. I don't even mean it in a way like I was interested in him but I guess I was just intrigued. It's like you know people with those faces that you don't really notice until you take a good look at them? Anyways he was giving his little presentation today and was all shy as he was talking and stuff and like I just couldn't help but stare at him. He had these eyes like I don't know... soulful would be one word to describe them I guess. OK I'm making it sound like I have some stupid crush on him but it isn't that at all. I'm just say it was a good feeling to discover beauty I hadn't notice even existed before.
After that class i was walking home and the sun was shining and it seemed like lots of people were smiling and then I met my granny as I got off the bus and she seemed really happy to see me and told me that this girl at work things I'm such a sweety. And it was just all going right. So I think how well things appear to be going everywhere depend a lot on how you are feeling inside. Like today even on the bus I didn't care that I was standing or that once I got a seat someone came on and I had to give them my seat, like I was happy to do it. I think there'd be less car accidents and less fights if everyone could just walk around in this happy cloud that I was in. Ok right, not gonna happen, but still, can I just keep the cloud?
I've been having a really wonderful day and I would like for it to continue like this. Lately I've been happy. I mean I've been stressed out also because of school and work but overall I think i've been happy. I want to come to a conclusion about what is making me this way or what number of things are. I'm hesitant at the same time to write about being happy because I know it could all go away by tomorrow or any minute. My moods usually fluctuate a lot, day to day, but ya overall I think i've been pretty happy.
Anywho, why am I happy today? Well... I got my assignment handout for medical anthropology and I was really worried about it because I have two other essays to write and a test to study for and so I had an hour and a half break today, where I went over it in the library. It isn't bad at all, I feel pretty capable of being able to answer it and do well. I already started brain storming my ideas and if I concentrate properly I should be able to get it done in like two hours. So ya I also worked on my other essay last night and I'm almost half done that one. It's due next friday and the anthro one is due on tuesday. My greek myth test is monday so it's really all going to come down to how I can manage my time.
So I also had my 5th medical anthro. conference today and that also went really well. I found I had all these things to say for once and even though I am shy, I like how I still voice my thoughts and opinions. I used to always want to try and change the way I am but I think I've found a better way to just be myself. There's nothing wrong with being a little reserved in some situations and i don't know why I've always felt that there was. As long as I'm not holding myself back in situations, I think I'm ok. So ya anyways, we had our discussions and as I was saying things that this guy kept agreeing with me on and then he would talk and mention how what i said makes a lot of sense. It was nice. Then there was this other guy, his name is George but that doesn't really matter, and today was the first day I noticed him. It's been the 5th time I've been in the room with all those people (like 15) , and even though maybe he wasn't there every single time, I'm surprised I still never noticed him. Anyways he is really beautiful. It's funny because well I don't know, I usually notice good looking people and for some reason a lot of the time I make judgements that they are probably assholes. But with this guy today, it was like he was just beautiful and I kind of just wanted to be touched by the beauty. Heh this sounds rediculous I guess. I don't even mean it in a way like I was interested in him but I guess I was just intrigued. It's like you know people with those faces that you don't really notice until you take a good look at them? Anyways he was giving his little presentation today and was all shy as he was talking and stuff and like I just couldn't help but stare at him. He had these eyes like I don't know... soulful would be one word to describe them I guess. OK I'm making it sound like I have some stupid crush on him but it isn't that at all. I'm just say it was a good feeling to discover beauty I hadn't notice even existed before.
After that class i was walking home and the sun was shining and it seemed like lots of people were smiling and then I met my granny as I got off the bus and she seemed really happy to see me and told me that this girl at work things I'm such a sweety. And it was just all going right. So I think how well things appear to be going everywhere depend a lot on how you are feeling inside. Like today even on the bus I didn't care that I was standing or that once I got a seat someone came on and I had to give them my seat, like I was happy to do it. I think there'd be less car accidents and less fights if everyone could just walk around in this happy cloud that I was in. Ok right, not gonna happen, but still, can I just keep the cloud?
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