The Last Day of Summer

The weeks are just flying by. I can't believe how fast it's going. Before I know it, it will be summer again! Woo Hoo! So I'm leaving soon and I am getting nervous. I hope that everything will go well. I'm also very excited! Oh Boy! When I get back, it will be real life tho. I will graduate and I will find a real job, a career. I think that is going to be the tough part tho because as as English teacher in Quebec, there aren't many jobs and there is a lot of competition for the few jobs that are available. Oh boy!! Who knows? Maybe I will even have to move and live somewhere else. It's gonna be big the changes coming, I can feel it.

My mind has been blank. I have abandoned learning and I have given up on language. I just got tired of it. Now I think I see that I got tired of academia rather than of language. I can't go for very long without writing. I just have to stick it out for a few more months. I need to re-awaken some sort of passion. My life is a very scary place these days. The inside of my head more specifically is the scary place. It does not want to get interested, it does not want to get involved, and it does not want any sort of responsibility. Most things are like chores and I'm not sure where my enjoyment has gone. I have to snap out of it. People are school were talking about marriage and about dresses, food, centrepieces, blah blah blah and all I could think was "man, i don't want to worry about ANY of that. THank god it's not me getting married". Another day people were trading recipes and talking about how they made certain things and I couldn't have cared less. May...