The Last Day of Summer

Are you Ready for it? I think a surprise or two is coming up. Can you handle it? [edit] hey Mindy, here's the new layout, hope you like :D - Laur [/edit]

In a Sort of Awe So Annie came down from Ottawa to visit me yesterday and to sleep over. Kim also came over on the same day so we could exchange gifts. We all ended up playing Cranium (including my great grandmother) and it was too funny. I love that game. Annie gave me the Queen of the Damned movie as well as a necklace and Kim gave me Jelly Bellies as well as A GIFT CERTIFICATE TO GO AND GET AN HOUR LONG MASSAGE! Oh my gosh, I don't know if you ppl are aware but massages are one of my absolute favorite things on the planet. I'm soooo excited. Kinda scared to go alone but it should be amazing, my aunt may even come along and get one herself. hehehe When should I make my appointment for? :) hehehe WOO HOO Anyways can't post very much because I have to go and watch the movie Chocolat now with JOHNNY DEPP and an IRISH GYPSY. Oh mon dieu!!! I watched the movie. What's the point? I can't take it anymore... I fall hopelessly into the love stories that I see ...

Just for the Record I'm not trying to sound depressed or anything, I had a very good Christmas but... I just find out a little bit more about my family every year. So my grandfather showed up for Christmas dinner tonight. He does not talk to our family all year and he didn't come the last year so I figured that he wasn't coming at all... I did not buy him anything and he shows up with a couple of presents. He gave me some bath stuff which was nice but man I didn't really want him here. Not to sound mean but I'm not really that comfortable around him and he doesn't stop talking. (there is obviously more to it than that but I've said enough) Anyways so what does he say when he talks to me for the first time in over a few years. He says something like " I hate telling women things like this but Melinda I think you've gotten a little chubby". Like OH YEAH!! Did I ask for your opinion because I cannot recall doing so. So i'm wearing baggy c...

Christmas Eve! Wow, tomorrow is already going to be Christmas! It came sooooo fast, it's insane. Anywho I just wanted to wish everyone a merry Christmas Eve and Christmas and whatever other holiday that you celebrate. So tonight I am eating a home and then going to Laurie's for her little partay thing. And then after that I might be going to another party at John's house. It is far though so I can only go depending on if I can get a lift or not. *crosses fingers* Anywho MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Number 1 Pet Peeve Let's just not even get into it. I already have a million times. Anyways I just wanted to invite people to my space because I just signed up there and it is a little better than Friendster, at least in my opinion. I have a headache. I'm lucky that Katie is going to come over today. She's gonna save me. We are going to rent a playstation game and quite hopefully another Johnny Depp movie. Muhahaha Should be fun. Oh yeah and we both have to wrap presents; I can't believe it will be Christmas in 3 days. wow! Oh and sorry my whole body coudln't fit into the cam. hahah I just wanted to show off the shirt that Michelle and Laurie bought me.

Don Juan Demarco I watched another movie with Johnny Depp with weekend *sigh* I don't know how it is possible that he is exists. He is so beautiful that it is almost rediculous. Anyways... wow Don Juan. I still not sure whether he really was Don Juan or not but I think that was the point, it doesn't matter either way. What matters is whether you can believe in loves that are as powerful as that or not. I wouldn't mind meeting Mr. Demarco, not at all, but it would prolly kill me if I was just the 1 553 person he slept with and nothing more to him. What did I really want to say about the movie? Oh yeah... people have been making me think lately that was I am looking for just is not out there and that I expect too much to the point where such a person could not exist. That movie made me think again the an all powerful love is possible. The point of life is to look for it. I want to be with someone who I can know I am in love with, without a doubt. What was the quote I like...

Name that Song? How I long for something better Than this life I know too well Though I know I'm bound for heaven Cuz I done my time in hell

Here We Go Holidays! I wrote my last exam of the semester today; a 4 hour english one. I didn't find it that bad, just really long. I actually have a good feeling about it "Act of God" was alright in fact. Moving on... Went shopping today and I got practically everyone a gift: my nana, my great granny, Laurie , Michelle, John and Emma! I already have Kim's and I just have my aunt, my uncle and Tyler left. My aunt's wasn't there and my little cousin has everything so what am i gonna do. I was all excited because I found rollerblades (they were sooo cute and tiny) for 20 freaking bucks but of course i found out he already has rollerblades. The kid is six what could he have possibly been doing with rollerblades alright.... pfffft. anyways enough about that. Oh yeah secret santa also left if we are doing it. I went with Katie and afterwards we decided to go see Lord of The Rings, Return of the King . It was sold out at paramount of course so we went to C...

Note to Self I feel really lonely. I doubt I am lacking in the friends aspect or the family one (although my mother called the other day) but I am definetely lacking in the romance department. I don't think being single fits so well for me. Anyways that is why I wanted to post this. I do not want to lower my standards or force love. If I feel something then fine, I'll pursue it. But I've deluded myself before into feeling something that was never there and I cannot let myself repeat that mistake. It isn't just me who gets hurt in those situations. I want to feel love again so bad that I am considering things I would have never even thought about before. If I could ask Santa for something... yes I believe in him... i did see him afterall, it would be for a partner. Ok so partner sounds dumb but I couldn't think of a better word. I'm not sure if Santa can grant those sorts of desires but here is hoping. There is a part of me that feels so empty that I ca...

Contest This is my new layout. WOo hoo, it's Christmassy! Anywho here's the thing... Who can tell me who that person is?!? She's very important so you should know!!!

A recount or two Last night was the 3 amigos camp party. I made the mistake of telling people that I found him cute. To make a long story short (because I want to get on to what happened today) by the end of the night he ended up with my number on a napkin (and my e-mail) in his pocket. Oh my gosh... talk about embarrassment. Tonight I went to see Evanescence ! She had just as good a voice live and she does umm not live. ;) wow. My immortal was really breathtaking and when they played bring me to life.... the whole stadium went nuts. I was amazing. The only thing that I wish is that I would have been in the front row on the floor. Our seats were pretty good but you just feel a little disconnected when you have to sit there the whole time. Anyway it was a memorable night. Concerts are amazing. During songs that everyone sings you just feel like you are a part of something. Anywho i'm gonna go eat something now because I am starving!

Busy Times This layout is pretty groovy thanks to Laur ! Although it is way passsed fall and now into winter, who the hell cares? Last night I went out for supper at a girl from my class' house. It was tres fun. We watched dumb and dumberer and Queen of the Damned . I've watched QoftheD Sooo many times that I should just buy it. I really love that movie. Anywho, tonight I am going out for dinner again but this time at 3 amigos . I think i'm gonna have a fajita unless i go to for st antonia pollo. who knows? It is my camp x-mas party so I'm sure it should be pretty fun. Woo hoo. I'm bringing Apukwa from camp with me. Yay, she's the best. And laur is coming with us also. yay Should be a party. hmmm what's next? Aww yes... tomorrow. Tomorrow is the EVANESCENCE CONCERT ! That should be tres tres fun. Wonder if i'll meet anyone interesing? ;) I love this vacation deal. I don't have to go anywhere I don't wanna and I have no homework... it...

Hey Mindy, I thought I'd make you a new layout for the concert on friday. I hope you like it and don't hate it.. I wanted it to be a surprise. I'll try and make you an Angelina Christmas one soon k?

One more Day Tomorrow is my last day of school if you don't count the day I have to go in to write my english exit exam. So today I had my french test and my anthropology one and I hope that they both went ok. They were pretty easy compared to the two that I have tomorrow: humanities and qm. I don't feel like studying for either so that is why they are going to be tough. Qm not so much because I have a study guide but I have no idea what the humanities test is going to be about. Today I got stuck in a bus door yet again. Ask Laur all about it... it's always me. Every time I try to get out of those automatic doors, they close on me. arrrg. Hmmm what else can i write about. I haven't been posting that much because nothing supremely interesting has been going down. I'm sure there will be more to right about once my vacation starts. Umm i actually wore pigtails in my hair... take a look at the cam pic. At first I was going with the balls like princess Lea but...

Beautiful So lately that has been my msn name for a long time... I want people to look at me and see someone who is beautiful; mentally just as much a physically. But maybe it is for myself, maybe I want to be able to look in the mirror and see something beautiful. I normally don't but sometimes I can catch a glimpse of it hiding there. I want to be able to meet people and know that they are priveledged to get to know me because I actually am special and worth something. I am not trying to sound conceded here, I hope it is not coming across that way. I saw something today that I wanted to write about... what was it. Oh ok nothing really special. I saw a mini Ryan. ha! You know the show the OC? Well some dude that I saw today in school smiled and i had to look twice. He was too short to be him but I swear it was looking at the guy from the OC, tres weird. Tomorrow I am going to a Toco party so hopefully that will be some fun. yay! I'm looking to change something abo...

Barf If I had to describe how I feel in one word, I would choose the word crap. I was fine today at lunch and then I got back to school and got a big headache. I took a pill at school from Glen and then another when I got home and now I feel like I'm gonna pass out. Michelle wrote something nice in a survey about me today so I just wanted to thank her. At least someone made me feel special. Alright so enough said. I'm going to go and try to sleep this off I guess because I have to wake up at 6:45 tomorrow morning. Man... can school just be over?

I could write and write Heheh it feels like I am keeping so many things inside lately but I like it. I like the feeling that people don't know half of what is going on with me. It is great. There is a difference between people just not knowing and then not caring and i prefer the first. Right so tomorrow could be a very good day or a downer but we'll just have to wait and see. hmmmmm wonder what will happen. Umm so i'm kinda happy. yep yep. Possibilities and fun are coming up everywhere. Woo hoo. Bring on the X-mas Holidays. I need to get my ass shopping!!!

WOW I had a really good day today, I don't want to jinx it and explain why. ;)

Got To Counter the Streak So things haven't been going to great for me in the past while and I am choosing to call it a streak of bad luck. It could be a million other things but let's just call it that. I just painted my nails and if I F them up by typing I'll be sooo pissed. I should be used to it because no matter what I always F one of them up. I tried to take a pic of them in my cam but the lighting in this room is terrible and so I just ended up taking some kinda trippy pic. The hotel party was alright. There are a lot of things that I would like to say about what went on there but I cannot because it isn't only my eyes on this screen. Lately I'm just feeling pretty robbed/wronged and so I better just work on getting over it. On a more positive note, school is over in about a week and a day. That is amazing, can't believe I get a 5 week period holiday. I had better find myself a little job soon. yes yes. Right so I have to go take a bath now and ...

Looking Good, feeling Alright Ok so I lied, I'm not feeling THAT alright but whatever, it sounded good to say. ;) I'm about to leave for the hotel party, I have half an hour left to wait. It is the worst thing ever to be already and then have to wait around. I would say that is one of my pet peeves which is high up on the list. Of course I wanna go to this party because it is Andrew and Kim's Birthday but... Well first of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Both KIM and ANDREW. Right, so the only reason I am kinda hesitant about going... well not hesitant but kinda like oh boo is because my man isn't gonna be there. Hahahah my man. Not EVEN my man but still. It would be so much fun if he was going, without his gf of course. DAmmit Mindy! You see that? Someone smack me, I am being evil again. I can't help it though, I like him. Right well maybe there will be someone else kool at the party that I will want to get to know. We'll see. My hair is looking really nice, than...

Going to the COUntry Well hardly the country but I'm going to St. Lazare to visit my friend Jessica. Yay! Should be fun, Jess, Laur and me. Jess are I are going to eat pizza, I LOVE Pizza! As if anyone doesn't know that about me. Right so tomorrow is the hotel party at the Ritz Carlton... i wonder if I have to dress formalish or what, I should really ask. I'm gonna go pick up some things for the party tomorrow and well as my cheque from st. hubert's tonight. wahah. I hope Dominique is there, I don't really wanna see everyone else. :0

Ahem Ahem... Today I think that I am going to dinner at a certain someone's house. *cough cough* It isn't really anything special because other people are going also but it is still a start you know. Hell maybe I will not even end up going but I think that I will. ;) Wish me good luck... wonder if anything will go anywhere. Oh yeah I would also like to say sorry for doing nothing but complaining in my few previous posts. Who wants to constantly read about someone whinning about the world? Cry me a river, right? :) Oh well, it is now almost 10 o'clock, i just got home but... there are no real good results to report. Sorry captain.

Slipped Away I used to be good at socializing. I used to be F*cking good at it. Now I can hardly carry a conversation. What happened? I'm not sure if I've become anti-social or if I have just forgotten how to relate to people. I used to be quick and have things to say and now I just stay quiet. Maybe this will pass like everything else. How am I supposed to meet new people if I'm not even going to make an effort to talk, what if I can't make an effort anymore? Like i mean I would love to meet a really amazing guy but what would I have to offer him if I can't even hold up a proper conversation. No one answer that with anything clever please. arrrg I just want someone special in my life.

Everything is Hurting Block me, don't speak to me, do whatever you want to me. Don't read about anything going on for real and just listen to what other people tell you about me. GO AHEAD. I don't want to go to the doctors... i don't want to know. I don't want to think about her anymore, i don't. THis song makes me want to cry. Fallen by Sarah McLachlan Heaven bent to take my hand And lead me through the fire Be the long awaited answer To a long and painful fight Truth be told I've tried my best But somewhere along the way I got caught up in all there was to offer And the cost was so much more than I could bear Chorus: Though I've tried, I've fallen... I have sunk so low I have messed up Better I should know So don't come round here And tell me I told you so... We all begin with good intent Love was raw and young We believed that we could change ourselves THe past could be undone But we carry on our backs the bur...

Just Wonderful So when I was a kid I had something called juvenile rheumatoid arthiritis, they discovered it when I was four because a spider bit me and the swelling never went down afterwards. So i was diagnosed at age 4 and I had to take medication everyday and then I got two kotozone shots (can't spell) and then by maybe age 10 or so, it just left. It has been great not having to go to the doctor's all the time and get bloodtests or pee in a bottle or any of the other tests that I used to have to do. Really great. About two weeks ago my knee flared up and today I finally went to the doctor. I was sent to get x-rays and my arthiritis might be back :( Man... can it just go a way. I don't understand why it just appears out of no where like that but hey it may not even be arthiritis. My granny is at the store now picking up Viox or something like than some anti-inflammatory pills for me. I just have to remember that things could always be a lot worse. At least my leg i...

Come test it out. Alright so I need some friends on this friendster thingy. Michelle made me sign up but it isn't fun to only have two friends when other people have like a million. Yep so head on to This Place and come send me a message. ;) That will be all (for now) ps my e-mail is mindy_13@hotmail.com

I Wonder... I am liking this guy so much... I'm wondering if I am just blowing it out of proportion. Like if things were to happen and we were to actually get together, would I still want it? I worry about myself sometimes like... I like things when they aren't going to happen and then when they do, i realize it isn't what I really wanted. It doesn't happen ALL the time but enough times to make me wonder.

Thank-God I finally finished my humanities essay today. Not bad considering I only started it on Monday. Damn long essays. One more to go due Monday... sociology. It is about myself though so it should be easier. Then I guess I will have one more thing to write in french and one more essay and english and then all the frigging essay with be done with. I love when school is about to be over. It is great. I'm pretty sure I want to go into social work. At least I think i would like it and feel like I am actually helping people. I am happy because Sarah thinks she is interested in the same thing so maybe we will get to be in the same university classes. That would be really really good. Maybe we'll even work together when we are older. If I don't like social work too much I think I will either go into child psychology or lawschool. yep yep. Who knows though. I would still like to work for the child sector of the united nations. At least I know I want to work with kids an...

I'm not good with names, can I just call you ASSHOLE?!? I thought that was a good way to start my blog of the day. I bought a shirt in quizz, it's red and that's what it says. Wahahaha Funny huh? Today I got to hang around with someone special but it is really hard to just have a conversation with only him and I. It just doesn not happen. Why should I care though? He has a girlfriend and I am not a homewrecker. Pffft. I can't help it though... he is so sweet. Oh well... I'm just wasting my time. I got a test back yesterday and one today and I got the highest mark in the class on them well I know on one for sure and people made it seem like so for the second. You would think it would make me feel good but that kind of attention kind of makes me feel bad. Like I guess I like a fair enough amount of attention but not like that. With the shirt I bought it is kind of the same thing. It is tight on the boobs and that isn't exactly the part of myself I lov...

Err Mc Grr Damn STM and their stupid bus/metro strike. I'm going to be stuck at school for 4 and a half hours on thursday unless I walk home and I'm going to walk home on friday at 11:30 unless i feel like staying at school until 4, which I don't! Man... on wednesday I only have to start at 2:30 and the only bus i can take (or metro) comes at like 9 am. Yeah right! That isn't going to happen. I was supposed to go to the clinic today to see if they have to amputate my leg off or not but it was too full and they were only taking appointments at westmount square. So I didn't go and I thought I would go to the vendome clinic. I get there and it's closed! Dammit, I don't know what the hell is going on with my leg and I have no where to go. It is kinda painful. arrrrg. I have to write a 2000 word essay due friday for humanities which i worth 25% of my grade. Arrrg I just can't seem to collect the info in the right way to just go ahead and write. Wow ...

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And Here I Sit Dammit. I'm home and I'm alone on a Saturday night. Alright I'm not quite alone since my granny and aunt are home but I am alone in a different sense. I just want him to like him. It's selfish and I know it but I can't help that. I can't believe I have a crush... It's disgusting. I haven't had a crush on someone since I don't know when. Lately things have just fell into place and happened. That or I found out the other person liked me. Crushes make you too vulnerable and I hate them. Why should I place my fate in someone else's hands? yeah... especially someone with a girlfriend. Way to be smart Melinda. man... ALright so I want to go and see the Matrix 3, maybe I'll work on doing that tonight. He won't be there though so what good is it? Arrrgggg.

oh man.. Way for a quiz to be right on the mark... :( It even asked my biggest fault and there was the option of saying that you feel alone even in a crowd... wow. Your soul is bound to the Solitary Rose : The Alone. "When I wake up alone, the shades are still drawn on the cold window pane so they cast their lines on my bed and lines on my face." The Solitary Rose is associated with loneliness, melancholy, and patience. It is governed by the goddess Merope and its sign is The Sword, or Unrequited Love. As a Solitary Rose, you may be summed up as a hopeless romantic. You desire love and have so much love to give, but thing just never seem to work out the way you want them to. In life, you can be very optomistic, even when things are gray and nothing works out to your expectations. What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To? brought to you by Quizilla

sigh So i quit work. I just couldn't handle the stress or the though of working this friday and saturday. Anna told Dominique for me and everything was ok because I didn't have to tell the other two boses. She is gonna take my shifts on the weekend and she told me to still come visit her. And then Dominique... who i really liked told me that he was going to miss me. *tear* then Andre, the comic relief of my everyday shift asked why i was going to leave. he told me to just to something else there but whatever can i do? I can't make food and i think being a waitress would kill me. I'm gonna miss them... aww so sad. But I hate the clients well... the majority so bye to them and bye to rushed and by to people getting angry at me. Man... i feel really bad. Just as i walked out the door , there was a big lightening in the sky, it was strange. Like a bad omen. oh well... i hope that will turn out for the best. Sniff sniff.

My Life and Being The Night is my companion, solitude my guide. Would I spend forever here and not be satisfied? Has that really become my primal scream? Not that I do not like it, but I did not even write it myself.

Relieved Sometimes it is just really nice to have a place to be able to write whatever is on my mind. I have my journal also which i reserve for really important thoughts and feelings and sometimes stupid ones also but here i somehow feel less lonely writing. I'm sure a lot of people can relate to that because they too have online webjournals or whatever else. So lately I'm struggling with school. Well. you see. not really struggling because school is really not that hard if you try but I'm just struggling with actually motivating myself enough to be able to get my work done. It seems to be getting harder and harder these days. I just want to snuggle up in my bed and read the new Harry Potter book I got for my birthday. It doesn't help when english is really pissing me off either. I got a 7.8 on a the rough copy of my essay and so i went and made all the corrections she made in my paper and then I ended up with an even lower grade on my final copy. What the hell?...

A Good Birthday Yesterday was infact my birthday and I had a really good night. So my whole family came over and that was fun. One highlight was Laurie putting lipstick on my little cousin's neck. How funny was that? So after we all ate and the guests left, Laurie and I weren't sure what to do. My friend Jon had told me if I wasn't doing anything on the night of my birthday, he would come and kidnap me. So that is what happened. He came and kidnapped me and took me to a bar in the West Island, Clyde's. The thing is though, Laur had made me wear the shirt that her and Michelle had gotten me for my birthday. It is an inside joke i guess you could say and it says (in huge letters) Sometimes when i laugh I pee! . Soo... we get to the bar and, of course, I get carded, but we also had to do coat check. OH MAN... i didn't wanna take off my coat... hahah embarrassing. I DON"T PEE when I laugh by the way. hahaah maybe once... NO i'm kidding;/... i really don...

7 Ceremonies, 19 Believers ==================== On the 7th day of the darkest season came the sweetest girl and the only reason to endure winter the gloom, the cold and that only reason's now 19 years old Some call her "angel" others still call her "child" but how many can see ...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

What can I do? My last day being 18... I'm supposed to make it count right? Or at least make it something memorable. Unfortunetely, all I want to do is sleep and I have to leave for work in less than half an hour. What am I supposed to do? Tomorrow is my birthday and I don't feel well at all... could be worse but I'd rather be in very good health and spirits for my bday. Wonder what tomorrow is going to be like.

Why Why Why?!?! I feel so shitty right now. I am so sick. I thought that maybe this morning I would feel better than I did last night, but I don't; I feel worse. uggghh Sarah it is a good thing that you didn't invite me to your house this weekend because I would have infected your whole family. My germs would be all over the place. Uhhhhg I don't even think I will be better for my birthday which is in two days. I am lucky that I only have one class today because I am definetely not going to school. My plans, after waking up this morning, were to sleep all day long but they are foiled. I cannot sleep because I have some weird headache. Not a normal one because I can normally just sleep those off or cure them just with my will. (that is kinda kool thing to do btw) BUT this headache is different. I guess it must be a sinus one because my brain is actually hurting. I'm not sure if I can explain it properly... a normal headache throbs I guess or pounds but this is like O...

Yay! This is the first weekend in a while that I've actually had a good time. Friday night I got to hang out with friends and saturday night I got to watch two movies. So Sarah I saw 28 days later that you were encouraging me to see. It was interesting but I think I liked Kill Bill better. Yep, so I finally got to see Kill Bill. Thanks Paul! ;) I had a really good time. I finally feel kinda happy. Tomorrow I have to kick it into homework overdrive but I think, all in all, it was well worth it. I hope that everyone else is having a good weekend.

Happy Halloween Halloween is so exciting. I went to school today and such a bunch of people dressed up. I was pretty sad because I didn't have a costume... :*( I really wanted to be a vampire for halloween but maybe next year. I'm supposed to work but I told them I couldn't and I'm not going to. I think I am going to go stay at Sarah house and we are gonna watch a bunch of movies. I wanted to go out first tonight and look at the houses a bit, all the decorations and stuff. Yay! Halloween is the best. Maybe I will try to dress up to go to Sarah's. Melissa and Sarah are going to see how much of a baby I am. I'm gonna try to doing something else while they are watching the really scary ones wannnh. Something important to me about Halloween is spirituality. yes, especially since Halloween is supposed to be my New Year. I'm not sure what exactly to do for the spiritual side of things tonight. What can I do? I know working will not help. I AM NOT WORKING...

Can't Wait When I get to work only 3 shifts a week, I will be very happy. I told them I could only do three and I was supposed to do 5 last week and they are making me do 4 this week. As I said before, I DON't WAnt to work on Halloween. Tonight I'm going to say "look i told you I only wanted 3 shifts... i should not have to work friday". They'll prolly make me anyways but I'm going to quit next week if they give me more than 3 shifts. Besides work, school is stressing me out really bad. Freaking mid-term exams and papers are driving me nuts. I would be fine if it wasn't for developmental psychology and the teacher dumping like a million assignments on the class. Insanity. I had something more important to talk about and I thought of it last night in my room before I went to sleep but since I have alzheimers... i can't remember what it was. I had like a million weird dreams last night so that is also maybe why i forget. I dreamt that I went s...

Long Time No Post I think that I may have to seriously work on Halloween. :( The only way I can get the night off is if I call the restaurant tomorrow and can find a cashier willing to take my place. Good luck for me. I really hope though. I have about six different option for what to do on halloween and I want to do each and everyone except for work of course. I have saturday and sunday off at least but still... halloween. Next friday is my bday so I had better get that off. Wow so come friday, it will be my last week of being 18. I don't like thinking of it in terms of that but maybe that is the only way to make myself do something really memory so one day I can say "Well when i was 18 blah blah". My eyes are starting to bother me, I've been wearing my contacts all day. Guess I'm gonna go now and solve that problem. I GET TO WATCH THE OC TOMORROW!!! I"m soooo excited!

A Waste of Time I want to enjoy myself. Lately it feels as if homework is just a waste of time. I know that I have to get it done and that it is important if I wanna get the grades that I do... but man. I don't have time. I would rather go out and watch a movie than stay home and work on a psychology project. I mean really... I have to go to work in less than 45 minutes and I hardly got any homework done today. It is impart because my little cousin came over but still. I have to go to Laur tomorrow and work on our oral, then go to work so when am I gonna have time to go out and have some fun? Plus how am I supposed to get all my homework done. Arrrggg it is really aggravating. I have to go get ready for work now. :(

I want to find him.

Good to Know People actually really care about me or they at least do an excellent job of pretending. hahah I will go with the first though. So many people tried to help me out after what happened, including the other two managers at the restaurant. Dominique was so super nice and I am glad that I am closing with him this weekend. Jeannot also. Biggest thanks do, of course, go to Laur , who stayed with me until I had to close. :) Also thanks to Sarah and Melissa and Paul and everyone who showed they cared even in a little way. It is good to know that I have people that I can turn to when shit like that happens. Everyone at work was giving me their numbers in case anything happened and blah blah, it made me feel better. Still, I'm glad I didn't have to work today. I got all of 5 hours of sleep last night and I'm pretty behind on my school work. You know me, right? I can't have that so guess what I have to do this weekend on top or working? YEp! homework... eww THE O...

Anything to injure the Innocent I am sooo tired of it... I can't stand it anymore. I don't know what I am gonna do. Everywhere I do, all of the people I meet... I am so upset. I was working today at st. hubert and everything was going super well. I was actually having an okay time, I made some money in tips... you know, everything was chill. THEN god i wish someone was online who I could talk to but no i'm all alone just like when it happens... when I am all alone. It is funny because I was even talking about it today with Sarah and her friend Melissa. right so what happened? I'm sure you could have guess by now. One of the livraison guys (delivery) hit on me. He is fucking 40 years old and stuff. He told me that he is going to take me some place with him just to get away. Does he really think I'd wanna go away with him, I would rather GET away from him. God dammit. So right that wasn't so bad. Not like he actually did anything. There was this one other livr...

hmmm My subject for this post is an indication that I do not know what to talk about. I haven't posted in a while though so I figured I should. How about the new layout, is it me? Or did you all like the old one better. Hahah who am I talking to, I make it sound like a million people come to my humble site when really hardly anyone does. Oh well, the ones who matter do so i guess that is all that is important. I have to work tomorrow... argg. I spent all day today trying to get homework done and I haven't even done that much. I have to get back to that soon. I hope that Laur is having a good second shift at work. Her first one was not so great. It was soooo busy on saturday. Oh yeah... speaking of it being so busy. I had to work all alone on my second shift. Lucky Julie was being a waitress so I ran to her often for help. She is so nice that girl, like really really. Hahah she always messes up my name so she has just decided to call me. Memi... it's funny. Sounds like ...

Astonished I had a really good night at work today! Woo hoo. I actually made tips working as cashier. One dude gave me 3 bucks, he was like : Je sais que j'exaggere mais...". My heart almost stopped when i realized it was all for me. wow. That was super nice of him. I guess he felt some compassion for me since I'm freaking out most of the time. The girl who was watching me today (i would say my trainer but it makes me sound like a poodle or some other breed of dog) was the best ever. Julie is my new hero. She always like helps when I need it and like gets me to chill out which is what I need to do. so yay I'm happy about tonight. I have a crazy week coming up though this week. I work tomorrow night and then I don't think I work sunday but next weekn I am doing 5 shifts. Insanity. I hope i can get a lot of school work done this, well tomorrow, because I am schedule to work Mon, Tue, Wed, Fri and Sat. & hour shifts all from 5 - ~12pm. Good bye to doing homew...

OK, so I'm still breathing. I worked again last night from about 5pm o'clock to 1 something am. Hahahah it is pretty insane and I didn't go to my first class today because I would have had to wake up at 7 am. It's the first one I've missed, I had my homework done, and I got about 94% on the exam so I think I'll be alright. Anywho back to talking about work... The shifts at work are either from 10:45 till 5 or 5 will supposedly 11:30 but it takes longer than that to close your cash and count everything and make sure it all adds up. I have to remember so so many thing. I'm terrified of when my training will be done and I will have to do everything on my own. ACK! I think that I am going to stay there anyways because mostly everyone is nice and I kinda like some of the stuff that I have to do. So I'm trying to decide what days I should work on... I dunno wanna have to work ALLL weekend. So i'm not sure... I think that I have to do at least 3 shifts...

Kill Me! Oh my gosh... i feel so shitty. Training lasted from 10:45 till about 5:55... My feet are killing me because I had to wear heels all day since i don't have all black running shoes. I have to go back and work tomorrow from about 5pm till like 11:30 or 12pm. I cannot work everyday if that is what they are expecting; I still have school to balance and time to myself. Shit man... It was so stressing. I not only do that cash but I have to balance all the money the cashiers give me, the livraison people and get the managers to sign things plus I have to answer the phone when it rings and open the cash and close it and i have to check that there is enough things in stock, check the bathrooms, seat people at tables if i have nothing to do AND learn how to make drinks and wash glasses and I could just go on and on. The girl who trained me has been working there over a year and does not go to school so maybe (hopefully) she just showed me way more than i have to go. Dear God I h...

Employed Yesterday I applied for a job at St. Huberts. I wanted to be cashier in later hopes that they'll also train me as a waitress. I got the call for an interview today at 2 pm. The interview lasted all of 7 minutes, if that, and I start training tomorrow at 10:45 ;) Wow it all happened so quickly. My interview was in french because my boss is french and we have the same last name. har har Only hers ends with a t, not two ts and an e like mine. I hope this is going to be a good job. I was so excited that I didn't even think to ask what my salary is going to be so I will have to ask tomorrow. I'm normally really worried about my french but it came out fine today. This will probably be an opportunity to at least improve my french if nothing else.

A New Day I feel different yet again today. I feel ready; ready to get a job, to get my liscence, to join a gym, and maybe even ready enough to really fall in love. It is a really invigorating feeling and I do not want it to leave. I'm going to go and give out a few resumes today; if I do not get hired at Blockbuster then I think I would like to try my hand at being a waitress. If I am really going to spend a year after university in the Bahamas then I'll need some experience. It would be amazing to work at a restaurant on the beach and then to be able to spend my time at the beach in the water or tanning when I am not working. Just amazing. No pressures, care free; soulseaching time. I feel so weightless but when I think of all the school work I have for this weekend it kind of brings the feeling down, oh well, I just have to get it done and that is that. My granny is home for the weekend and it is great! It is so nice to walk down the hall and then to see her. Yay! So ...

Just like I wanted I'm going to Jessica's tonight and guess what we are gonna do? We are gonna go to the gym! I've been wanting to join a gym for a while. So we are gonna work out for maybe 2 hours doing whatever programs are happening and then we are gonna go swimming and then to the hottub. Woo hoo sounds like fun. I'm gonna watch the Italian Job at her house also tomorrow. yay! Today was such a different day. It didn't feel like I was myself but it did not feel bad... not bad at all. I saw Charles on my way home. He is going into communications later at vanier where he already goes. That's pretty groovy. I am happy.

Just a Question (alright maybe two) Why is it people feel the need to listen to their discmans or whatever so loud that everyone else can sort of hear what they are listening to? What is the point? If you are just listening to it for youself it definetely does not have to be that loud. Actually, unless you are deaf it must actually be uncomfortable to have it that loud. It aggravates me... it especially did today. Some dude was listening to like belly-dancing music (sorry I don't know the proper name) and like it was so loud but still I couldn't exactly hear it properly so all it sounded like was misquitos being killed in those bug zappers. It was really awful to listen to for the whole bus ride and I will blame my head ache on that. If you want other people to listen to your music, you should at least have the respect to ask them if they want to. I definetely did not want to hear that the whole bus ride and it was rude and every so annoying. I watched Interview with...

Forever and a day I was dying to post when I couldn't get into my blogger and now that I can post, I'm not sure what to write about. Alright here we go: Forever and a day, that is really a beautiful statement to me. Because promising forever to someone just seems a little ordinary and usual but promising forever and a day kind of adds a new dimension to it. It is promising even beyong forever. I'm not sure if I believe in promising anyone anything close to forever because how can you ever be that sure? Maybe this is because I have yet to experience a love that I feel could really last and satisfy me forever. Here's hoping that one does exist though. Ok now besides liking that lyric from Always by Bon Jovi, I am kind of scaring myself. Instead of bothering to write clever and beautiful things myself, I am just using stuff from other people. That's kind of sad and pathetic in my view but I guess if someone else said it better, why not? I want to continue writin...

The Return The O.C. comes back on October 29th and 9 pm, that's all I wanted to jot down. ;) STAND UP: You are a natural stand-up comedian. You watch the news with people, and when you give your opinions, people start laughing. They are not laughing at you, they are laughing because what you say is so TRUE. The world is a very funny place, full of natural comedy. All you do is repeat various humorous things that you notice from everyday life. Your unique perspective on the world is what makes you so funny. Of all the various comedy types, you may be the funniest of them all! PREMIUM COMEDY OF YOUR TYPE IS WELCOMED AT: http://pub98.ezboard.com/bkickbanned How funny are you? brought to you by Quizilla Sure... that sounds just like me, doesn't it? (har har) Protector The ULTIMATE personality test brought to you by Quizilla I wonder if this one rings a little truer?

Finally I couldn't get into my blogger, hotmail account, or proquest for ages. I was getting sooo frustrated. All I wanted to write about today was a man I saw in the metro. He was playing the piano at lionel grouxl and I wanted to give him all the change in the world. He was really talented and at first I even wondered if it was really him playing. He made me want to dance right then and there in the metro, infront of all those people. I've only taking one social dance class so I don't imagine it would have been anything to special but still, I've never felt such an urge. I was by myself though and I wasn't about to start dancing all alone. He was so good and I was really upset that I didn't have any change on me because I for sure would have given it to him. I really want to take more dancing classes. I love it. That's about the biggest inspiring event that happened to me today. My french oral with is now over with so I can relax a little more. T...

Pizza Tonight I have to stay home today because my aunt and great grandmother are going to visit my granny. I have to dog-sit again because Sherri will get really sick if she is left alone. Anywho Sarah and possibly Melissa are going to come over to keep me company and we are gonna eat pizza. Nice! I love pizza... one day i will turn into Pizza Head. I don't know if any of you remember that commercial where bad things would always happen to poor mr Pizza head? I must sound a little psychotic if you do not know what I am talking about. Last night I watched some pretty good movies at Paul's. I didn't get to watch all of Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas so I will just have to try again another time. Every movie I get into at his house, I never get to see the last minute or two of it. Normally it would be ok but the movies are always that ones where the whole story comes together in the end, namely Fight Club and last night it was Pulp Fiction. Meh i was kind of zoning in...

Ohh Fridays!!! I am really starting to love my fridays. Too early in the weekend to think about assignments due next week and just perfect timing for fun and relaxation. Fridays are the greatest! Laur lent me her webcam so I was just having fun with that after my shower. Now I have to get ready to go to Paul's house because we are doing this movie marathon idea. I am happy because I'm gonna get to see Johnny Depp. Wow I can't believe he is 40 and has a child. Lily-Rose... kinda kool name if you ask me. I wouldn't mind seeing a vampire movie also but Johnny should be good enough. My little poetry section is back up along with my cam picture. muhahahah Oh yeah... some dude left a business card in our locker (Katie and I) and there was writing on it that said I've been noticing you, call me, or at least something along those lines. Wonder who that was directed to. I doubt I'll call, my friend Sarah tried but she got an answering machine Wahahahhaha

Allo My name is MinDAY! I laugh.. HOOOOOOOOOOOOON HOOOOOON!! Laughing makes you smile :D My bestest friend is LAUR we love LAUR ! ... are you a stranger?!?!?!?!?

For what Reason? I took the 138 bus to school today and instead of going to get it at the stop i normally go to, I went by my old apartment and got the bus at a stop sooner. I was listening to my walkman and looking at the bus schedule to see how much sooner the bus came to that stop, and who do I see? My mother is who I see. My stomach did a veritable flip and I thought for sure she'd see me. She was on the same side of the street, only at the corner... I'd say about 7 or 8 ft in front of me. Why do I continue to see her? Obviously I realize she must live around here or something but is there a real reason why? There wasn't anything I could do either besides turn around because if I ran to the next bus stop I'd of missed the bus for sure. I'm so surprised she didn't notice me... what would I have done? I just can't seem to get enough of these quizzes, what gem would you be? ! You are most Like A Sapphire ! Dark, mysterious - but unforgettable. Y...

Random Thoughts Two posts in the same day, enjoy. I miss Jay... I think about him a lot nowadays, how is he doing, is he happy, does he miss me? I called him a while back and it was like he was a completely different person. That is one relationship that I wish could go back to being the way it used to. I want a job where I can help people. I don't care so much about what it is as long as I can contribute in some way. A child psychologist, a lawyer, a researcher or a teacher. I don't know how to choose which field to go into but I know that I want my job to be meaningful. Any suggestions? People advise others, I've been advised the same thing over and over, that you shouldn't get into a job that you are going to take home with you or that you are going to let get to you. I don't believe that. Maybe if we all cared a little more, if things actually got to all of us then the world wouldn't be what it is today. Perhaps there wouldn't be millions o...

Holiday Scmoliday This upcoming monday is a Jewish holiday. My first two classes are cancelled because I have Jewish teachers and so I only start school at 1. Normally this would be wonderful but last class our french teacher announced we were starting orals on monday. I dispise french orals. She named all the people who had to go monday and I was so glad I was not on the list. Then this one punk who i strongly doubt is even Jewish claimed to be and said that because he was, he couldn't possibly do his oral on that day. Bullshit! You don't see me giving excuses like "oh it is Samhain so I can't do anything work at all today tra la la". Anywho I guess the real reason this upset me so much was because guess who got booted up to doing their oral on monday? ME , that's right so I'm stuck. I don't even know what she wants for the stupid oral but I am going monday. What an asshole! You're the loving smile,the one that is entirely devoted to others,...

Isabel Do you ever just get this really shitty feeling and not know why it's there? Maybe that is how Isabel is feeling. Last night when I was walking with Melissa and Sarah along St. Catherine, this guy grabbed my wrist and asked all these weird questions. He first asked the standard "how are you" and then went on talking about how he saw me in Toronto last weekend. I told him that I wasn't in Toronto last weekend and he didn't take me serious I guess. He asked me my name and when I said Melinda he said "no, aren't you Isabel?". Isabel? Oh yes sir, that's right. How stupid of me to have forgotten my own goddamn name... I got so drunk last weekend that I didn't even know what fucking province I was in. That is right... I'm glad you set me straight. You couldn't even believe half the people I met. That wasn't so bad though, I had my friends with me thankfully. Not nearly as bad as the time the stinky old asian man with missing...

Freaky-ish I was writing an e-mail to someone today and after it was sent an add popped up in hotmail. I went to check it out and it is like the strangest thing ever. It talks to you and actually answers questions and stuff. So the address is http://www/dugg.ca so go there if you are curious. If you can figure out the magic word or whatever please let me know. hahaha this thing is really weird. Oh yeah and if it is some bad thing I am not taking any responsibility for what happens. I'm not forcing you to check out this site, I am just mentioning it because I think it is funny/strange and because it says my name. If you do go and check it out, lemme know if anything interesting happens.

The Way You Make me Feel So the movie turned out to be pretty good last night. :) Just proves that I shouldn't listen to what the majority of people tell me. I need to find someone who has the highest average of liking and disliking the same movies as I do and then consult only that person. I didn't know that Underworld was in part a love story, guess I missed that in the previews. Anyway although it wasn't your typical vampire movie, I did really enjoy it. The lead female actress was pretty good and had some amazing eyes happening. I was surprised to find out that Ben from Felicity was in the movie. hahaha Go Ben! So I'm thinking I should go get tested for anemia or whatever but if they then tell me that I also have cancer or that I need my leg amputated, boy will I ever be pissed... Hospitals are scary. My granny was moved into a conveslescent home yesterday so we'll see what the is like tonight when I go visit. An old friend of mine from elementary scho...

Always at the Back of my Mind I saw my mother today on my way home, luckily enough it was not up close. I would say that she looked a little better than your average drug addict. She had some nice bell bottom pants on and a boston bruins shirt. I wanted to study her, to see everything going on in her life but I had to hide instead. I know what she is like and it is most probably same old same old going on. I don't think that I could risk it. Everytime I hear people talking about their parents or, even worse, teachers giving us assignments where we have to interview our mothers or at least our fathers, it sort of depresses me. I got this psychology assignment, a parent interview, all about what the birth was like and how well the child developped and learned. And, the instructions were that it is most interesting and works best with your own mother but guess what? I don't really have that option so that paper can just screw off. I'll interview my granny when she gets ...

Who Wants to be Lonely? I don't anymore.

Too Real I wasn't going to post at all today but then I realized that it was only fitting. If one is going to have a name like "last day of summer" then one should most definetely post on the veritable Last day of summer. When summer comes to an end it is so terribly sad for me. Luckily enough I am not feeling anything tonight. I am just so tired. I am feeling more on the good side than the bad though. Last night I went to a party in Point-Claire. Andrew's party and I had a fairly good time, it was pretty fun. It was good to catch up with certain people. I did however manage to confuse myself like I always do in the love side of my life. Anyways, I'm sure that'll figure itself out, maybe it was nothing. My granny is doing much better now. She was actually sitting up in a chair today. I didn't go see her today because I was sleeping when my aunt went but I will for sure go and see her tomorrow. I'm so relieved compared to what I was feeling...

So Much For Being a Vampire I went to visit my granny in the hospital, it was awful at the beginning. There were tubes all over the place: her nose, her arms and her hip. She told me that the operation was awful and showed me the bruises all over her veins from the doctors not being able to get them properly. The doctors ended up having to put her to sleep (which she did not want) and take the blood from her neck. I saw the bruises there and then she showed me the tank of blood at her side. I had to sit down and it was then that I realized my future life as a vampire was over before it started. I felt so sick... I needed to walk away and sit down. I wanted to cry but I didn't want anyone else to see my cry. My aunt and uncle were there with me. They went to get coffee for my granny and then she held my hand and was fighting to keep her eyes open. I felt the tears building but I turned and looked at the window. She has a beautiful view from there. St. Joseph's is magnificent...

Feels Like Friday Only having one class in day really changes how I feel. I don't feel stressed or anything at all just pretty good. I took a quiz and I think that it got at least part of me right, let's see if it works. You represent... hope. You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't mind being alone at times. You have goals, and know what you want in life... even if they are a little far fetched. What feeling do you represent? brought to you by Quizilla Hope is one of the most important things in life, according to myself. Last night I really wanted to go for a walk alone but since it was 11:30 I couldn't because it isn't too safe around it. I decided in the end to sit on my balcony for a while and listen to music. It was nice... the weather has been amazing. It would be nice to have someone to share that with and someone who could understand. I wanted to sleep outside last night. My gran...