How could I?
I went to see Hero tonight with Jesse, I thought it was a really beautiful movie. The way they used color and everything, I was super impressed. During the movie, whenever someone would cry, a tear would only fall from one eye. When the movie made me have a tear or two, it would happen the same way, strange.
So as I'm sure all of you know, I always have these well I dunno if I'd call them adventures but I always have something with people I don't know on my way somewhere or home. Lately it has been changing though, instead of being followed, yelled at or harrassed, I've been finding people having uhh I guess health situations. The other day on the metro (i can't remember if I wrote about it here, if i did sorry) this guy with down syndrome or something like it got on at lionel groulx with me and was standing beside me. We got to about Guy Concordia when he suddenly just lost consciousness and fell on the floor. I have to say that I hesitated a little but then I tried to see if he could hear me and was responding. Someone pulled the metro stop lever and the metro people came and took him away. Tonight on my way home, I got off at Vendome, went up stairs and found an older man just lying on the floor with his face all red (blood or scab, I couldn't really tell) and beside him he had a bag of things. The bag led me to believe that he was homeless and I didn't know if he had been hurt or had fallen or was maybe drunk or on something... People just kept walking by him and I didn't know what to do. Ok I know that I'm a lifeguard but at the same time... I don't know what is wrong with him or if he is going to get up and maybe try to attack me. And so I'm ashamed to write this but I thought about just continuing to walk like everyone else. I was doing it but then I stopped and turned back and walked toward him. Another girl had stopped (wearing all white which was kind of strange and symbolic) and was trying to get him to talk to her. I went beside her just to show her that she wasn't all alone and then another girl picked up the phone to dial 9-1-1. The metro cops came in though and started to handle the situation. Other cops and an ambulance showed up a little later. So I walked away after the metro cops came because there wasn't really anything I could do but I felt like such a, I dunno the word i'm looking for... such a insensitive, uncaring, cold person. I mean I can't believe I actually considered not stopping. The guy could have been dying and I might have just walked right on by. It makes me really sad. Sad also because there were other people who didn't turn around at all. I was thinking about becoming an ambulance person, paramedic i guess, but that situation with his face all mangled up really bothered me. I'm sort of questioning if I should even be a lifeguard. Then again, when I'm guarding, I'm prepared and looking out to make sure nothing happens and I'm also ready for something to happen, when i'm just coming home from seeing a movie, I'm not prepared to see someone laying on the floor with a broken face. I hope he is ok. When i was in line for the bus I could hear him screaming. He wasn't screaming when we first found him because I think he was in shock but maybe he was coming out of it later. I was going to go through his bag and put something over him to try and help the shock but I was scared that he would have a fit at me. Man... I hope that I've seen enough people in those kind of conditions for a while. It upsets me. Then again, if other people are going to just walk on by, it might as well be me. I really admire the girl in white who didn't even think about continuing to walk by.
I went to see Hero tonight with Jesse, I thought it was a really beautiful movie. The way they used color and everything, I was super impressed. During the movie, whenever someone would cry, a tear would only fall from one eye. When the movie made me have a tear or two, it would happen the same way, strange.
So as I'm sure all of you know, I always have these well I dunno if I'd call them adventures but I always have something with people I don't know on my way somewhere or home. Lately it has been changing though, instead of being followed, yelled at or harrassed, I've been finding people having uhh I guess health situations. The other day on the metro (i can't remember if I wrote about it here, if i did sorry) this guy with down syndrome or something like it got on at lionel groulx with me and was standing beside me. We got to about Guy Concordia when he suddenly just lost consciousness and fell on the floor. I have to say that I hesitated a little but then I tried to see if he could hear me and was responding. Someone pulled the metro stop lever and the metro people came and took him away. Tonight on my way home, I got off at Vendome, went up stairs and found an older man just lying on the floor with his face all red (blood or scab, I couldn't really tell) and beside him he had a bag of things. The bag led me to believe that he was homeless and I didn't know if he had been hurt or had fallen or was maybe drunk or on something... People just kept walking by him and I didn't know what to do. Ok I know that I'm a lifeguard but at the same time... I don't know what is wrong with him or if he is going to get up and maybe try to attack me. And so I'm ashamed to write this but I thought about just continuing to walk like everyone else. I was doing it but then I stopped and turned back and walked toward him. Another girl had stopped (wearing all white which was kind of strange and symbolic) and was trying to get him to talk to her. I went beside her just to show her that she wasn't all alone and then another girl picked up the phone to dial 9-1-1. The metro cops came in though and started to handle the situation. Other cops and an ambulance showed up a little later. So I walked away after the metro cops came because there wasn't really anything I could do but I felt like such a, I dunno the word i'm looking for... such a insensitive, uncaring, cold person. I mean I can't believe I actually considered not stopping. The guy could have been dying and I might have just walked right on by. It makes me really sad. Sad also because there were other people who didn't turn around at all. I was thinking about becoming an ambulance person, paramedic i guess, but that situation with his face all mangled up really bothered me. I'm sort of questioning if I should even be a lifeguard. Then again, when I'm guarding, I'm prepared and looking out to make sure nothing happens and I'm also ready for something to happen, when i'm just coming home from seeing a movie, I'm not prepared to see someone laying on the floor with a broken face. I hope he is ok. When i was in line for the bus I could hear him screaming. He wasn't screaming when we first found him because I think he was in shock but maybe he was coming out of it later. I was going to go through his bag and put something over him to try and help the shock but I was scared that he would have a fit at me. Man... I hope that I've seen enough people in those kind of conditions for a while. It upsets me. Then again, if other people are going to just walk on by, it might as well be me. I really admire the girl in white who didn't even think about continuing to walk by.
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