I just woke up from very messed up dreams. One thing in particular happens to be and I always get scared. This time I only dreamt about it happening instead of it actually happening but it's just as frightening. It is like I feel that I should wake up, and I just can't. I have to sit there for like 5 minutes (which seems like more than an eternity while it is happening) trying to force my eyes open, trying to move. The first time it happened I remember trying to scream and not being able to. This morning I dreamed that the same guy that killed my aunt's daughter was in the house. I knew bad stuff was going on, actually I was also in the kitchen in the dream. Ya, i was two places at once. I was in the kitchen and I think that I was going to kill him this time and his lover (which was a dude) was begging me not too. WOAH it's really fucked up. He was telling me that he didn't want to look after five kids alone and stuff. so ya... at the same time I could see my granny in the room with him and I was stuck in my bed and I couldn't get out to help and I was trying so hard to open my eyes, soooo hard and I couldn't do it. I was trapped in my own body. gah I really do not like that.
On the bright side, I had a good dream also. Laurie had just called me and we were going to subways or somewhere and then sarah called right after. Sarah was like "are you ready?" and I asked for what and she said " to go to the beach". I was so lost. So I aksed what beach and she said in plattsburg and to pack my stuff cuz she'd be there in 20 minutes to pick me up. She told me to bring laur to. AND then sarah actually called me in real life, my cell vibrated under my pillow and therefore under my head. So i was all disoriented for a sec and asked if we were going to the beach. We are going out to dinner at 3 amigos , not the beach. silly me. CRAZYiness!