It's Always Raining in my Head

It's true you know, no one undermines their own relationships quite like I can and like I do. This time two weeks ago, maybe even a week ago, I was almost in heaven. I thought I was actually falling and that things were going well. And now look at it... I don't even know what is going on with anything anymore. And why? Because I can't help but say things and think... always. I guess it is better that way and to realize what is actually going on but ... ignorence is so blissful. My heart hurts. It really does. I was so miserable today and the weather was perfect for it. Then work went by at a crawl and one of the bosses was pissed at me and ... Something happening with me now that is bad is that when ever i feel emotionally not well, it turns into physical and I'll literally be shaky or be feeling sick to my stomach. I could barely even eat today, like I had no will to.
I don't know what there is left to do.
cry? for what.. I don't know.

Right so note to everyone out there, don't see the movie the notebook.
that is kind of just a joke... I just like to make the correlation or whatever.