For about the past 2-3 years I have wished consecutively to fall in love; every birthday wish, every 11:11 make a wish, every shooting star, every turkey bone (when i got the bigger piece), every everything (and I really mean without fail). I thought maybe it finally happened after wanting and wishing for it for so long and now that I think maybe it didn't, it's just so much worse. enough with the wishes. It leads to this big expectation that isn't fair in the first place and it's going to kill me. And that's all i have to say for tonight.
Happy to cry...
Joan of Arcadia made me cry ... again... It was such an amazing episode. There were so many little things to catch and I prolly missed some. But the whole part how Judith made the guy memorize Hamlet for her (tragedy where leading female dies) and just as he is finished it, she herself dies. And how Joan can always keep a part of Judith with her and just so many things. That show is soo good to me because it is really moving and it makes you think (as well as cry if you are like me). I am happy to cry because I can actually feel something. Experiencing something through a television. Before I was thinking about what it would be like to be someone else with a different kind of life. It just feels like I am not feeling enough right now. I know I am actually experiencing a lot and to use the simile katie did, it is "just like the earth is always moving but we never feel it". But I want to feel it. It's like something is missing.
Lately I feel as if I have...
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