Wow, days like these are so weird. It's like all the life is drained from me. I have absolutely zero energy. I was going to do all these things tonight like: watch a movie, play nintendo, read, clean my room and yadda yadda, but I'm toooo tired for anything. I took a bath and read and I think that just made me more tired. Should have known that one but it was very relaxing and I like doing that. I looked around my room and did the most superficial cleaning of my life. I'll have to try to fix up my room tomorrow or something. God, I might just go to bed now at 9 30... I feel so lifeless.
Happy to cry...
Joan of Arcadia made me cry ... again... It was such an amazing episode. There were so many little things to catch and I prolly missed some. But the whole part how Judith made the guy memorize Hamlet for her (tragedy where leading female dies) and just as he is finished it, she herself dies. And how Joan can always keep a part of Judith with her and just so many things. That show is soo good to me because it is really moving and it makes you think (as well as cry if you are like me). I am happy to cry because I can actually feel something. Experiencing something through a television. Before I was thinking about what it would be like to be someone else with a different kind of life. It just feels like I am not feeling enough right now. I know I am actually experiencing a lot and to use the simile katie did, it is "just like the earth is always moving but we never feel it". But I want to feel it. It's like something is missing.
Lately I feel as if I have...
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