I just needed to post before I get down to some homework. I have a very RARE feeling at the moment and I wanted to get it down before it goes away, which I am sure won't be too far off. I feel like I am where I am supposed to be in all sense of the phrase; relationships, school and thoughts. I'm not sure if it is the coming of the slightly warmer weather which just has me in a great mood but it's definitely something. I know soon i will be freaking out because of mid terms but right now I feel confident that I will be able to handle them. I feel confident with where I am right now, confident. Some of my friends are going through hard times right now and I think I've learned a big lesson. At least in theory I have, it will take me a whole lifetime to be able to put it into practice but I'm learning. So there is a big different between being there for someone and completely enwrapping (sp) yourself in their situation and having your mood fall in with theirs. For the longest time, how other people were feeling was having a huge impact on how I was feeling and it still does for sure, but I think to a certain degree, I can get past that. And that doesn't make me a bad person. I've always felt that if someone else was feeling shitty, I didn't really have the right to feel good and I don't think that this is true. However, this doesn't mean I shouldn't be there for them and try to help them through as best I can. Anyways, enough rambling. In short, I feel like I am on track and moving in the right direction.
(remember this post in the coming month or so because I'm pretty sure I'll be a giant contradiction.) that's another thing... If there is something you can count on in me, it's to be a walking contradiction (is that a song by greenday or someone?) I'll get to that in some other post though.