I don't mean to sound so alarming. I'm just intense. I'm a scorpio afterall. In the moment I feel things and I write from that emotional place. Things are rarely as bad the next day, or even the next hour or two later.
I'm learning things and so is he I think. We're going to be okay.
I half regret that I've given the link of this website out to people because sometimes I just need to get things off my chest, but that doesn't mean I want to worry people, or hurt others in the process. Writing is just my best way of thinking and of putting my ideas into some sort of logical order. OR just dealing with something that I don't feel like I can deal with in the moment. I always feel better after I write. Thanks for your comments tho, and I just wanted to say everything is okay.
I'm not perfect myself and I am very critical of other people. On my own end I think that I have to lighten up a bit and not be so uptight BUT i also am not about to compromise my values so it's always a juggling act.

I'm going to yoga tonight. I can't express enough how much I freaking love it. I just wish that I had people to go to yoga with because it's always more fun with friends. Perhaps I will make some :) There's an idea huh? haha i have to build better social skills in situations where I am on my own.