This morning was the worst ever. I wanted to cry. I went to throw something in the garbage and i saw fucking maggots. oh my gosh. I'm not sure if u can relate but I really really really dislike worms. Like i'm super creeped out by them and this was maggots... they are so squirmy and white and soo many and oh god. I don't know how they got there. I guess because I threw out fruit, but really, it hasn't been there long. I changed the garbage maybe 3 days before. Fucking maggots. So yeah, I threw up a little bit. We had to clean the garbage and on top of that there has been garbage bags in my fire escape for god knows how long. Maybe since before I moved here. And well.. I decided that maybe they had something to do with the maggots. so i cleaned it all. OMFG seriously.. the smell.. i dont think i'll ever get it out of the back of my throat. It was like used condom smell. I dunno if u know that smell or how I can describe it.. but well lets just say that I puked a lil more. Worst morning ever!!! THere were bugs as well and through one of the bags I could see a box of condoms. holy god. It's all clean now but really omg. If someone puts garbage there again I will personally stab them. shit man. Okay im feeling sick all over again writing about this.