I used to be a lot happier on my own. I got accustomed to being with other people all the time and now I don't know how to be happy by myself anymore. I've started to read the Golden Compass and it's amazing so far.. but it feels like I'm waiting for someone to come and chill with me. I don't know what it is. Maybe I just miss hanging out with a big group of people all the time, like in high school. I don't know what's going on with me. I think i have to do more social things. I barely did anything with my time all weekend. I saw my family and that was great but besides that I spent a lot of my time waiting for someone who I'm not even sure was worth waiting for. Well I will be sure to go out and do something fun in the coming weekend. :) Right now I'm gonna go take a bubble bath and continue with my book. It's really well written, it's like I'm in the story already. I love books like that.
Happy to cry...
Joan of Arcadia made me cry ... again... It was such an amazing episode. There were so many little things to catch and I prolly missed some. But the whole part how Judith made the guy memorize Hamlet for her (tragedy where leading female dies) and just as he is finished it, she herself dies. And how Joan can always keep a part of Judith with her and just so many things. That show is soo good to me because it is really moving and it makes you think (as well as cry if you are like me). I am happy to cry because I can actually feel something. Experiencing something through a television. Before I was thinking about what it would be like to be someone else with a different kind of life. It just feels like I am not feeling enough right now. I know I am actually experiencing a lot and to use the simile katie did, it is "just like the earth is always moving but we never feel it". But I want to feel it. It's like something is missing.
Lately I feel as if I have...
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