A Long December (u know what i mean... january)
So i am LOVING school this semester. How crazy is that? I haven't loved school in a really long time. What am I not loving tho? My home situation... gawd damn it doesn't even feel like my home anymore. And it is so hard because ultimately I just want him to leave but I feel also like I don't want to hurt him as much as I can help it. Who would stay tho? It's kinda weird. I understand that he wants to save the friendship... but I think time is needed there before we can before friends, let alone close friends. I am tired of dealing with the situation. I told him last nite that he really has to get himself in gear and get out as soon as he can. He said that he would get stuff done today, including telling his parents that we are no longer together. geez it's been almost a month and he still hasn't told him. I know he isn't close with his family, or at least not as close as I am with mine, but still... he should tell them.
Anywho, i am about to go and meet Sarah for a lite snack/lunch and later, after art class, I am meeting my friend John for a late lunch/early supper. hahah i love when life revolves around food. muhaha. For lunch I am totally getting cheese, crackers, and grapes... although it is kind of expensive here at the wonderful McGill.
I wanna figure out how to put all my poems up on here as links. I wanna get back into it. I really do. I will play around with that when i have some time later on. Generally i feel good about the way things are going. I think i am just kind of emotionally mixed up because I stopped taking the pill. I've been wanting to be off that shit for a really long time. I have a weird feeling about it. so now i guess all my hormones are out of whack... hopefully they will settle down as soon as possible. I wonder what the next best form of birth control is...
Any ideas???
So i am LOVING school this semester. How crazy is that? I haven't loved school in a really long time. What am I not loving tho? My home situation... gawd damn it doesn't even feel like my home anymore. And it is so hard because ultimately I just want him to leave but I feel also like I don't want to hurt him as much as I can help it. Who would stay tho? It's kinda weird. I understand that he wants to save the friendship... but I think time is needed there before we can before friends, let alone close friends. I am tired of dealing with the situation. I told him last nite that he really has to get himself in gear and get out as soon as he can. He said that he would get stuff done today, including telling his parents that we are no longer together. geez it's been almost a month and he still hasn't told him. I know he isn't close with his family, or at least not as close as I am with mine, but still... he should tell them.
Anywho, i am about to go and meet Sarah for a lite snack/lunch and later, after art class, I am meeting my friend John for a late lunch/early supper. hahah i love when life revolves around food. muhaha. For lunch I am totally getting cheese, crackers, and grapes... although it is kind of expensive here at the wonderful McGill.
I wanna figure out how to put all my poems up on here as links. I wanna get back into it. I really do. I will play around with that when i have some time later on. Generally i feel good about the way things are going. I think i am just kind of emotionally mixed up because I stopped taking the pill. I've been wanting to be off that shit for a really long time. I have a weird feeling about it. so now i guess all my hormones are out of whack... hopefully they will settle down as soon as possible. I wonder what the next best form of birth control is...
Any ideas???
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