What do I need? What do I want?
I had a thought today while I was taking a bath or getting dried off or somewhere in that span of time. Everybody is different, right? Different things please different people and different people have different goals. I tried to picture myself as a housewife. Cooking, cleaning, raising kids, gardening maybe... having that be my life. I'm not sure I could do it. There are other people who I could see being completely content doing that but I'm not sure about myself. I mean I have complete respect for people who are housewives (good ones) and I think I would really like gardening and of course kids but something would be missing.
I really want to travel, that is like one of my biggest dreams. I'm trying to think of a way to put everything I want together. So i want to travel, especially to about 7 places and then as many others as I can fit. The seven are: Greece, Bali, Cali, Hawaii, Jamaica, Ireland and Egypt.
I want to be doing something beneficial during my time on earth also. That and traveling are probably the two most important things to me. Ok I lied, love is also in there somewhere, that's always been hugely important to me. Ok OK so where do I stand? I want to travel, I want to make a difference. I've been thinking about med school for a while but I've always thought about the United Nations. At least for quite a long time now. Eventually I will have to crack now and take a much more active role in where I am going with my life. Traveling costs a lot of money, traveling as part of my job would be incredible but then again... I'm not sure if it is right to mix pleasure and work. ... actually why the hell not? I want to make a difference yes but that doesn't mean I can't also enjoy my life. hmmm alright so I should probably finish my degree in social work. Meanwhile, I will look into the united nations and how one would go about working with/for them. After university... maybe I will take some time to have a little bit if leisure travel. Just with a friend or two or maybe a significant other (if I have one). After that... I'll try to be seriously involved with the united nations... either with helping children (maybe I could be like an educator/social worker in impoverished areas) or with peaceful relations. This would allow for me to travel and to do something worthwhile (at least in my mind). Now... I also want to have my home someplace nice. I don't want to live in a place with freezing cold winters. Maybe I could stay in montreal but have a house someplace hot for the summer... God, I'm getting aehad of myself. I don't know where I get the idea that I will have money for all of this but man, i really hope that I will. right... so then there is love... I want that to be the most important thing in my life. but right now i've kind of shoved the idea of to the side. It's true that there are other things I can focus on at the moment. and maybe people are right, you find love when you aren't looking for it. who knows... right now i just know that I happen to be alright by myself. well just with friends and family, not completely by myself.
I am always rambling about my plans and my future. it is kind of repetitive. I will not apologize though because this is helping me and it is not like I am forcing anyone to read this.
Another thing... I am good at expressing myself through writing. I like to write poems... that has to fit somewhere in life also. not career but just a passion i suppose, we'll see. I know for sure that I can get out exactly what I want to through writing soooo much more than I can with speaking. I suck at getting things out properly with speech, i always feel as though my spoken words are never adequate... Maybe I am just crazy.
I realized last night also that I really do like teaching. Probably not like a classroom but a one on one type of deal. maybe that is something I could also do on the side. Maybe after my degree in social work, i will get some sort of teaching certificate on the side.
I had a thought today while I was taking a bath or getting dried off or somewhere in that span of time. Everybody is different, right? Different things please different people and different people have different goals. I tried to picture myself as a housewife. Cooking, cleaning, raising kids, gardening maybe... having that be my life. I'm not sure I could do it. There are other people who I could see being completely content doing that but I'm not sure about myself. I mean I have complete respect for people who are housewives (good ones) and I think I would really like gardening and of course kids but something would be missing.
I really want to travel, that is like one of my biggest dreams. I'm trying to think of a way to put everything I want together. So i want to travel, especially to about 7 places and then as many others as I can fit. The seven are: Greece, Bali, Cali, Hawaii, Jamaica, Ireland and Egypt.
I want to be doing something beneficial during my time on earth also. That and traveling are probably the two most important things to me. Ok I lied, love is also in there somewhere, that's always been hugely important to me. Ok OK so where do I stand? I want to travel, I want to make a difference. I've been thinking about med school for a while but I've always thought about the United Nations. At least for quite a long time now. Eventually I will have to crack now and take a much more active role in where I am going with my life. Traveling costs a lot of money, traveling as part of my job would be incredible but then again... I'm not sure if it is right to mix pleasure and work. ... actually why the hell not? I want to make a difference yes but that doesn't mean I can't also enjoy my life. hmmm alright so I should probably finish my degree in social work. Meanwhile, I will look into the united nations and how one would go about working with/for them. After university... maybe I will take some time to have a little bit if leisure travel. Just with a friend or two or maybe a significant other (if I have one). After that... I'll try to be seriously involved with the united nations... either with helping children (maybe I could be like an educator/social worker in impoverished areas) or with peaceful relations. This would allow for me to travel and to do something worthwhile (at least in my mind). Now... I also want to have my home someplace nice. I don't want to live in a place with freezing cold winters. Maybe I could stay in montreal but have a house someplace hot for the summer... God, I'm getting aehad of myself. I don't know where I get the idea that I will have money for all of this but man, i really hope that I will. right... so then there is love... I want that to be the most important thing in my life. but right now i've kind of shoved the idea of to the side. It's true that there are other things I can focus on at the moment. and maybe people are right, you find love when you aren't looking for it. who knows... right now i just know that I happen to be alright by myself. well just with friends and family, not completely by myself.
I am always rambling about my plans and my future. it is kind of repetitive. I will not apologize though because this is helping me and it is not like I am forcing anyone to read this.
Another thing... I am good at expressing myself through writing. I like to write poems... that has to fit somewhere in life also. not career but just a passion i suppose, we'll see. I know for sure that I can get out exactly what I want to through writing soooo much more than I can with speaking. I suck at getting things out properly with speech, i always feel as though my spoken words are never adequate... Maybe I am just crazy.
I realized last night also that I really do like teaching. Probably not like a classroom but a one on one type of deal. maybe that is something I could also do on the side. Maybe after my degree in social work, i will get some sort of teaching certificate on the side.
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