I'm so scared right now. I'm not sure if I've ever been this scared without actually, well being scared. I don't even know how to make that make sense.
Whenever I am in a relationship... I seem to have this little voice telling me right away that this person could be really great to know but he is not the "one". I kind of gave up on the idea of finding someone who you'll just know is perfect. I figured that you don't really have to love someone right away and that it could grow. Which it possibly could in some cases i suppose. But right now I can't find one thing about Jesse that is possible for me not to love and this really scares me. There is alway something about people, there is always a voice. And now that there isn't... well I feel lost. It is like I have this disbelief that I could have actually found someone who I could see myself being with for always... this it's not possible. Thinking that I might have is terrifying. Umm I am so happy but it feels too good to be true. Ya falling was the right word... It's like I'm falling and waiting for something to stop me but nothing is. I've always thought that I would have like a big struggle to actually find someone who could make me happy or that it would take like half of my life. But, what if I've found it already?