Today I want to become a musician and yesterday I wanted to become a geographer. When is it ever going to stop? Will it ever stop? Or am I always going to want to be something different? There is a negative side and a positive one to my restless nature I'm sure. At some point though, I have to dedicate my life to something. It will probably be to my family, but I also want to dedicate it to changing the world in some way through my career. And I think to do that I have to become really good at something and I am not sure how I am going to do that if I have so many different things that I want to learn and become... I can never stick to one path (again, could be a good thing) but I mean i cannot keep changing my university major, or go for ANOTHER degree all together. I want a family including children, and to have that, I have to end up with some sort of stable income, which requires a job and not MORE student debt than I have already accumulated.. If I could get paid to keep learning and to study a whole slew of random subject, I would be so down.
Happy to cry...
Joan of Arcadia made me cry ... again... It was such an amazing episode. There were so many little things to catch and I prolly missed some. But the whole part how Judith made the guy memorize Hamlet for her (tragedy where leading female dies) and just as he is finished it, she herself dies. And how Joan can always keep a part of Judith with her and just so many things. That show is soo good to me because it is really moving and it makes you think (as well as cry if you are like me). I am happy to cry because I can actually feel something. Experiencing something through a television. Before I was thinking about what it would be like to be someone else with a different kind of life. It just feels like I am not feeling enough right now. I know I am actually experiencing a lot and to use the simile katie did, it is "just like the earth is always moving but we never feel it". But I want to feel it. It's like something is missing.
Lately I feel as if I have...
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holy crap, i dunno why I don't. I just haven't had time lately or concentration i guess. something will come out soon tho, i'm sure! but yeah ur right to say that, i want to write.