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2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"


Love, relationship-wise is sooo confusing. The different feelings each person experiences, the way they play out... it's all some kinda giant mess albeit sometimes a good and comforting mess.

The other day I was speaking with someone and he was telling me about some hard times he went through. I was listening and I really loved just listening for once. Not thinking how I could relate to it or how it applied to me, but just listening. It's been a while since I have been able to do that.

Afterwards he started asking me some things and he concluded that I haven't been through many rough times or struggles because I am too optimistic about things and happy. I didn't know how I felt about that. I'm still not sure. At first I wanted to say hey, you don't know shit about me or what I've been through. But then I thought hey, if he sees me as optimistic then that is great, especially after the shit I've been through. And then I thought hey... maybe my shit hasn't even been that bad.. Who knows? I guess it's all relative. The smallest thing can seem absolutely horrible for someone who has never really experienced pain so who can judge how bad something really is for an individual. I am not sure how bad things have really been for me. I think they have been as much good as they have been bad. I would even venture to say that they have been more good than bad, but hey maybe I am an optimist. What I do know is that I am okay. I have some issues and things that I have to work out, but I am still okay overall. And that my friends is an awesome thing to know.

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Lys_libre said…
What is very bad for one can be very easy for another and vice versa. Maybe for someone it would be the end of the world to loose their job but on the other side they would be abble to deal with loosing someone close to them. Nothing is harder than something else, only the person who's dealing with it can say wich is wich for them personnaly.
9:40 am
Mindy said…
Yep I agree and that's what I was trying to say.
Wow that was like the fastest reply ever!!!
10:30 am
Anonymous said…
You decide about me, Mindy.
I was abandoned by my father at age one and my mother only wanted my older brother-her firstborn. She sent me away or left me to fend for myself when she wanted to travel.

She even took me personally and dumped me in an orphanage and didn't even say goodbye.

All during my childhood she never hugged or kissed me once and didn't give a crap how the people she palmed me off on treated me, even when I asked her to help me.
11:17 am
Mindy said…
Well that situation sucks without a doubt, at least your mother and father played shitty roles. But from what I was trying to say, I guess what matters most is how much it affected you. For some people I guess I could really be the worst thing to happen, and for others it could have just been something that made them stronger. It depends on you personally I think.

Hey, who are you by the way? And what brought u to my humble blog?
2:31 pm
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