Golden Handcuffs or A Means to Family and Self Development?

 

I had trouble finding my way back to my own blog. I couldn't remember whether it was Blogger or Blogspot, or if those are the same thing now. 

Anyway, here I am. 

I used to question a lot of my decisions and wonder if I was leading the life I should be, whether I was on the right path or wasting time. I would think about some of my decisions, and regret not doing or doing this or that. Since Rowan, I regret nothing. The exact path I followed led me to him, so how could I regret anything? It's one of the best feelings. I don't look back or wonder. I would not change a single thing because then I might not end up with him. It's a powerful feeling. 

This does not mean I don't still think about my present or my future. I updated my CV today (thank you Canva), and realized that I have been working at the same place since 2012. That's over 12 years. I love my job, but that stat makes me feel uneasy. That's a long time to be doing the same thing in the one precious life that we have. I'm not sure what else I would be competent at or interested in doing. Plus, I'm finally at the top of my pay scale and have a pension and tenure. It took a long time to get tenure. I'm also at a point in my life where I want to work less, not more. Starting somewhere new or changing fields would definitely require more work, at least at the start. 

If I am not going to change jobs, I have to take my hobbies more seriously as ways to grow and learn. Spending time with Rowan is my top priority, followed by continuing to develop myself.