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Tales from a Booty Call

Your body satisfied my physical desires
Even sleeping next to you
Watching the rise and fall of your back
Gave me thrills
All width and stability
I went to sleep smiling
That was Wednesday night
It is no longer Wednesday and I
Am no longer smiling
I am feeling really disappointed
I am more than a physical body
I am also a mind and a spirit
And while this monkey mind will do it's thing
Think it's thoughts
Play it's games
My spirit is so much bigger than that
It is bright and shining
And loving
It loves beyond measure and judgement
It loves just for the sake of loving
It is the part of me I am most proud of
The very same part I don't think that you see
This bothers me

But wait, let me turn this inward
What am I really interested in?
Why when I know the brightest spirit
Do I like to roll around in the muck
Go for the very ones I am doubtful of
Spirits that know only of a sheltered life
Behind the ego
Is it my ego that responds?
What does that say about me?
Love is about openess
Love is about freedom
So why can't I love the one I want to love?
Is it my mind or my spirit in the way?

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Lys_libre said…
really hit home!
4:49 pm
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