700
This is my 700th post, I feel as though there should be some sort of celebration.
What can I say? I'm now 25 and I've been blogging, although inconsistently, for about 7 years. I feel something coming on with the number 7.
Well I have finished my third stage and I am going on to do my fourth in February. I applied to do it in the Dominican, but I did not get selected. So, to cheer myself up, and to plan my preemptive celebration for getting a second degree, I have decided to go on a trip this summer. Sarah and I have been planning a trip to Ireland for years now, and this is the summer we are finally going to make it happen. Hopefully we will see a little of the rest of Europe as well. I don't know how long we will go for or how far we will get but we are going. I graduate in April (supposing everything goes well with my final stage) and I will work my little butt off in May to save up for the trip. Then we will go sometime in June as stay for as long as we can depending on the money we have raised.
I feel like I should talk about every aspect of my life considering this is such a benchmark post (not that i'm into the world of blogging enough to know which ones are benchmarks BUT i like the number 7...). So my family is generally doing very well. My great grandmother is in a home and has lost her marbles, but she's 92, I think she did pretty well for herself. My granny is good. She's been through 3 major surgeries and come out strong after every single one. My aunt is a trooper. My uncle had three surgeries, mostly on account of his gym activities, but overall he is doing well. He does have the flu however. My lil cousin is awesome, he'll be 13 in May. He was on the honor roll this first term of high school. W0ot Wo0t! He's gonna do something big with his life that kid. He's too funny, I love him. Umm and interestingly enough, I'm going to see my mother some time soon. Yep, after almost 10 years... She is trying to do better now and fix up her life, or so she has told me. So I am going to put everything that happened behind me and be there to encourage and support her. I'll never forget everything, but I think that I am learning to forgive. Which is big for me you know. I am a grudge-holding scorpion after all.
On to the next love in my life: my plant... No, I'm kidding. I'm talking about Carlos. I guess this is a little personal to be putting on here, but we are doing good. And I think if we can get through this time, we are going to be ready to start a future (and dare I say family) together. Oh my goodness, I still get all freaked out and nervous even thinking about that. But the time is coming. I think we have each learned a lot and we are working better together. I love him. He has a lot of the qualities that I lack, and hopefully I have the ones that he is lacking. We make a really good team, at least when we aren't fighting with each other. hahah naw but seriously, if things continue to go well, we might actually end up together for life. wow! It's sooo crazy to me still to think about that.
Umm and what else? Well there is me and my own nature. I know I'm a spiritual person and I'm on some sort of spiritual path. I just have to continue. I think I will learn a lot in this life time and I will always be searching. It's in my bones to be restless and non-complacent I think. And instead of fighting that, maybe I will just let it be. I always yearn to discover and to take myself to a new level and do better. I am at a point where I realize I need some teachers. I will seek them out and hopefully the universe will provide me with what I need. I just have to be open to it.
I used to do a lot of social commenting and thinking and I just lost my interest in it. Maybe it's sad, but I don't think it's my way to improve the world. I think my way to do that is just by being me and helping others to be them. Hopefully teaching will be my vehicle for contributing to some greater good or enlightenment. I've changed a lot. I feel like I have lost some of the passion that I used to have, but I think it's just different now. I still care about the world and I want to do good in it. I just see that getting all hot and bothered does not really do anything. So I notice the things that bother me and the things I want to change and I step back and think about what I can do, in my own small way, to bring about that change. Babysteps. They are more productive than complaining.
As a last thing to end on, words are losing their importance to me. I feel like you can read and read and think about things over and over and try to formulate your sentences and say exactly what you want to convey, but you cannot. My words are rarely good enough anymore. They are limiting and borrowed and so I just try to feel and through that somehow make others feel. I know it sounds crazy, but I find it's working. There are so many things I want to say to Carlos, for example, that just don't come out right. But I feel like I can look at him and just say it that way, through my eyes. It's simpler and I don't know for sure, but I feel like he gets it. Anywho, that's enough. Hopefully someone gets me.
Happy 700th!
This is my 700th post, I feel as though there should be some sort of celebration.
What can I say? I'm now 25 and I've been blogging, although inconsistently, for about 7 years. I feel something coming on with the number 7.
Well I have finished my third stage and I am going on to do my fourth in February. I applied to do it in the Dominican, but I did not get selected. So, to cheer myself up, and to plan my preemptive celebration for getting a second degree, I have decided to go on a trip this summer. Sarah and I have been planning a trip to Ireland for years now, and this is the summer we are finally going to make it happen. Hopefully we will see a little of the rest of Europe as well. I don't know how long we will go for or how far we will get but we are going. I graduate in April (supposing everything goes well with my final stage) and I will work my little butt off in May to save up for the trip. Then we will go sometime in June as stay for as long as we can depending on the money we have raised.
I feel like I should talk about every aspect of my life considering this is such a benchmark post (not that i'm into the world of blogging enough to know which ones are benchmarks BUT i like the number 7...). So my family is generally doing very well. My great grandmother is in a home and has lost her marbles, but she's 92, I think she did pretty well for herself. My granny is good. She's been through 3 major surgeries and come out strong after every single one. My aunt is a trooper. My uncle had three surgeries, mostly on account of his gym activities, but overall he is doing well. He does have the flu however. My lil cousin is awesome, he'll be 13 in May. He was on the honor roll this first term of high school. W0ot Wo0t! He's gonna do something big with his life that kid. He's too funny, I love him. Umm and interestingly enough, I'm going to see my mother some time soon. Yep, after almost 10 years... She is trying to do better now and fix up her life, or so she has told me. So I am going to put everything that happened behind me and be there to encourage and support her. I'll never forget everything, but I think that I am learning to forgive. Which is big for me you know. I am a grudge-holding scorpion after all.
On to the next love in my life: my plant... No, I'm kidding. I'm talking about Carlos. I guess this is a little personal to be putting on here, but we are doing good. And I think if we can get through this time, we are going to be ready to start a future (and dare I say family) together. Oh my goodness, I still get all freaked out and nervous even thinking about that. But the time is coming. I think we have each learned a lot and we are working better together. I love him. He has a lot of the qualities that I lack, and hopefully I have the ones that he is lacking. We make a really good team, at least when we aren't fighting with each other. hahah naw but seriously, if things continue to go well, we might actually end up together for life. wow! It's sooo crazy to me still to think about that.
Umm and what else? Well there is me and my own nature. I know I'm a spiritual person and I'm on some sort of spiritual path. I just have to continue. I think I will learn a lot in this life time and I will always be searching. It's in my bones to be restless and non-complacent I think. And instead of fighting that, maybe I will just let it be. I always yearn to discover and to take myself to a new level and do better. I am at a point where I realize I need some teachers. I will seek them out and hopefully the universe will provide me with what I need. I just have to be open to it.
I used to do a lot of social commenting and thinking and I just lost my interest in it. Maybe it's sad, but I don't think it's my way to improve the world. I think my way to do that is just by being me and helping others to be them. Hopefully teaching will be my vehicle for contributing to some greater good or enlightenment. I've changed a lot. I feel like I have lost some of the passion that I used to have, but I think it's just different now. I still care about the world and I want to do good in it. I just see that getting all hot and bothered does not really do anything. So I notice the things that bother me and the things I want to change and I step back and think about what I can do, in my own small way, to bring about that change. Babysteps. They are more productive than complaining.
As a last thing to end on, words are losing their importance to me. I feel like you can read and read and think about things over and over and try to formulate your sentences and say exactly what you want to convey, but you cannot. My words are rarely good enough anymore. They are limiting and borrowed and so I just try to feel and through that somehow make others feel. I know it sounds crazy, but I find it's working. There are so many things I want to say to Carlos, for example, that just don't come out right. But I feel like I can look at him and just say it that way, through my eyes. It's simpler and I don't know for sure, but I feel like he gets it. Anywho, that's enough. Hopefully someone gets me.
Happy 700th!
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