I guess by not making a choice at all, I am making one. But I don't want to make the choice so I'm not going to. And that's that. Whatever comes will come.
I saw the Curious Case of Benjamin Button the other day. I liked it. I think Brad Pitt is really good in roles like that, just like ummm the one I always forget the name of... Meet Joe Black. yeah I had to ask Carlos.. Roles that require someone of sweet character and innocence. It's weird that I don't really care for Bradd Pitt in real life, but in those two roles I really do.
I'm also reading a book titled Brida right now by Paulo Coelho. I've already read The Witch of Portobello and I liked it. This one I think I may like even more. It's about a young girl on the path to learn the Old Traditions of the Sun and of the Moon. She learns from a magus and from a lady named Wicca. hehe I want to find my own teachers. I want to go on a pilgrimage. I've wanted that for so long now. I want to go somewhere for a year and just study something spiritual and fully dedicate my life to it. Do it everyday with nothing else but my own meditations and spiritual path. I really need to do it. I just don't know where to go or where to start but... I have a feeling that if I am just receptive to it, an opportunity will present itself. It will just be up to me to seize it.
There is a line in the book that I really connected with. Brida says that she is never able to choose only one path for fear of what she is losing, what other paths will close to her, what she will not learn, but in never choosing one, she does not choose any. And I feel like that. I feel like I am interested in so much and want to learn so many different things that confining myself to one thing will really be a loss. But I do never really go anywhere. That's what i feel like. And I think that I do have places I need to go. Just not traditional ones. The more I let myself listen to my inner voice (or guides, or whatever you would like to call it)the more I know that an everyday 9-5 job is not suited to me. My soul almost rebels at the idea and I know that I will not be happy with something like that. But I also know that I want to teach and I want to reach people and do things. So I don't know. I don't feel that just going along with the grain is right for me. I actually know that it's not. I think I have a different path to follow. I think I've known for a long time. I guess I'm just scared. I shouldn't be in school right now to tell you the truth. I'm probably going to finsh because I started it and I don't really have the courage to not follow through. I don't. But it's not what I should be doing right now and I know that. In the end it will benefit me certainly to have a degree in education, but there are other things I need to do. God/Goddess just grant me the strength to do the things I need to do once I finish my degree... don't let me just follow along and ignore my heart.
I saw the Curious Case of Benjamin Button the other day. I liked it. I think Brad Pitt is really good in roles like that, just like ummm the one I always forget the name of... Meet Joe Black. yeah I had to ask Carlos.. Roles that require someone of sweet character and innocence. It's weird that I don't really care for Bradd Pitt in real life, but in those two roles I really do.
I'm also reading a book titled Brida right now by Paulo Coelho. I've already read The Witch of Portobello and I liked it. This one I think I may like even more. It's about a young girl on the path to learn the Old Traditions of the Sun and of the Moon. She learns from a magus and from a lady named Wicca. hehe I want to find my own teachers. I want to go on a pilgrimage. I've wanted that for so long now. I want to go somewhere for a year and just study something spiritual and fully dedicate my life to it. Do it everyday with nothing else but my own meditations and spiritual path. I really need to do it. I just don't know where to go or where to start but... I have a feeling that if I am just receptive to it, an opportunity will present itself. It will just be up to me to seize it.
There is a line in the book that I really connected with. Brida says that she is never able to choose only one path for fear of what she is losing, what other paths will close to her, what she will not learn, but in never choosing one, she does not choose any. And I feel like that. I feel like I am interested in so much and want to learn so many different things that confining myself to one thing will really be a loss. But I do never really go anywhere. That's what i feel like. And I think that I do have places I need to go. Just not traditional ones. The more I let myself listen to my inner voice (or guides, or whatever you would like to call it)the more I know that an everyday 9-5 job is not suited to me. My soul almost rebels at the idea and I know that I will not be happy with something like that. But I also know that I want to teach and I want to reach people and do things. So I don't know. I don't feel that just going along with the grain is right for me. I actually know that it's not. I think I have a different path to follow. I think I've known for a long time. I guess I'm just scared. I shouldn't be in school right now to tell you the truth. I'm probably going to finsh because I started it and I don't really have the courage to not follow through. I don't. But it's not what I should be doing right now and I know that. In the end it will benefit me certainly to have a degree in education, but there are other things I need to do. God/Goddess just grant me the strength to do the things I need to do once I finish my degree... don't let me just follow along and ignore my heart.
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