Alright so last nite was a little bit crazy. I thought my appendix were bursting. it was scary. I woke up at like 3 15 am and was in super crazy pain. It was on my lower right side and then i went online to check which side ur appendix are on. it's the right. so i was kinda freaking out. cuz the pain was kind of intense. I tried to let it pass bt it's didn't. so at like 3 30 i woke up sarah and told her that i didn't know what was wrong with me. poor sarah. so we looked up more appendix stuff and then we decided to wait a little and see what would happen. Cuz i would feel like an idiot to go to the hospital with just cramps or something. so ya it turns out that i wasn't my appendix and it was just crazy ass cramps. I went off the pill like two months ago and ya... i guess i'm gonna get my period. holy shit tho... i never ever used to get cramps like that. like before i went on the pill, i had no pimples, no cramps. now after the pill i'm getting killer cramps and pimples. what the hell. I'm wondering if i should just go back on. but i didn't wanna be on it anymore. and who knows what will happen the next time i try to go off them. fucking hell.
Happy to cry...
Joan of Arcadia made me cry ... again... It was such an amazing episode. There were so many little things to catch and I prolly missed some. But the whole part how Judith made the guy memorize Hamlet for her (tragedy where leading female dies) and just as he is finished it, she herself dies. And how Joan can always keep a part of Judith with her and just so many things. That show is soo good to me because it is really moving and it makes you think (as well as cry if you are like me). I am happy to cry because I can actually feel something. Experiencing something through a television. Before I was thinking about what it would be like to be someone else with a different kind of life. It just feels like I am not feeling enough right now. I know I am actually experiencing a lot and to use the simile katie did, it is "just like the earth is always moving but we never feel it". But I want to feel it. It's like something is missing.
Lately I feel as if I have...
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